Fourth of July

Chapter 21

I couldn't sleep all night as I tossed and turned in my bed. Gee ended up coming to cuddle with me but got annoyed from my lack of sleeping so he just went back to his room. My mind was just racing and spinning, my heart skipping beats.

Alicia...was pregnant?

As soon as the early morning sun rays came up I went downstairs. Alicia was on the couch, sleeping peacefully as I went into the kitchen to cook. I kept getting disoriented in the new place but soon I had a bunch of pancakes for everyone. Gee joined me when he woke up, his hair sticking up slightly from sleeping with his paci between his lips.

Breakfast with the three of us was torturous. Gee ignored Alicia every time she tried to make conversation with him and he wouldn't even let her look at the maple syrup.

"She's looking at it!" Gee cried, hiding the maple syrup behind his hands.

"No, no I'm not," she denied. "You can have all the maple syrup I promise I won't touch it."

Gee pouted quickly before running off to his room to play.

"So, a-are you sure you're pregnant?" I asked.

"Yes, I'm sure," she said.

"And it's mine?" I asked.

Alicia nodded and I took a deep breath.

"But I wanted to tell you that I'm not keepin it," she said.

"You're getting an abortion?" I asked.

"No, I'm putting the baby up for adoption," she said. "Unless you would rather take it for yourself. It's your decision whether you want to raise it or put it up for adoption."

"O-oh, that's a lot of pressure," I muttered.

"You don't have to decide right now, you have nine months," she said. "And I think I should go now, you two seem busy with the move."

Alicia left and I sighed. Evan came by thirty minutes later and we sat on the couch.

"Why'd you call me over?" He asked.

"I, uh, I got Alicia pregnant," I said quietly.

"Shit, seriously?" He asked and I nodded. "Well, What are you guys gonna do with it?"

"It's really just my decision," I said. "She doesn't wanna keep it but she isn't getting an abortion. She said that I can keep the kid and raise it myself or she's going to put it up for adoption."

"What are you thinking?" He asked.

"That's the problem, I don't know," I said. "A baby is a big responsibility and, you know, we can't exactly bring a baby on tour."

"That's a good point," Evan said.

"But at the same time it's just...This is my child," I said. "I-I can't just give my child away."

"Another good point," he said.

"This is all just really sudden, the band is actually starting to take off and I have Gee," I said. "I can't have a baby right now."

Evan nodded and I bit my lip.

"But this is my little boy or my little girl," I said.

"What if it's twins and it's both?" He asked.

"Oh god," I muttered, my head in my hands. "I-I don't know what to do. I mean, I don't know the first thing about taking care of babies."

"You know we'll all support you no matter what you choose, right?" Evan said and I nodded. "But didn't you use protection?"