Ask Me How It Feels

Cyra Wilkins Age 15

There's a story of a girl
One with power immeasurable
But she was scared
She didn't want to hurt those around her

So she kept it a secret
Isolated herself
Showed no one her true power
And everything around her was safe

She hid in a bottle
But one day she met a boy
A wonderful, understanding boy
Someone that she could trust

So she told him everything
He swore to her
He would protect her
He would save her

Others around her took advantage
Of her state of weakness
And poked and prodded
And hurt and left her broken

She couldn't fight back
She was afraid of what she could do
But the jerks kept coming
And pressure was building in her body

She couldn't take it anymore
She snapped
Turned
Became her worst nightmare

But the people stopped
She realized the power
surging through her
It felt so good

It felt so right

Why did I hide this from myself

The girl changed
She became egotistic
She hungered for power
She wanted to be at the top
And took out anything that stood in the way

Weaker people were laughed at
Stronger people were challenged
She was at the top of the world
Sneering down at the dystopia below

She scanned the sea of fear and heirarchy

But she saw a face

Cloudy eyes reflected back at her

disappointment

Fear

betrayal

It was the boy
The boy she liked so much
The boy she tossed aside as her anger grew and twisted into greed

A wave of realization
A forbidden switch
That his helpless expression
Tugged at

Horrified at herself,
She thought
And thought
And thought

What have I become