The Perfect Tragedy (Kelix)

Chapter 13

Kevin pov:

I awoke to the sound of my boyfriend's soft snores and light breathing.

I turned to where my back was no longer faced towards him, and took in every detail of his face.

His hair was messy and he wasn't wearing a beanie.

His eyes were closed, and he had a slight purple tint under each of them. Probably from being sleep deprived.

His lips were a bit puffy, and slightly opened for his soft noises to escape.

He was only in his boxers because, well, it was just really comfortable.

He looked so beautiful while he slept.

I decided to get my phone from under my pillow and take a few photos of him.

I giggled to myself at how adorable he looked.

All mine, he's all mine.Nobody would ever replace him.

I grazed his cheek with the back of my hand and watched as his eyes fluttered open.

"Hey, babe." He smiled with his eyes still half closed.

His morning voice was rough and raspy. It made my heart skip a beat.

"Good morning, beautiful." I smiled back at him. My voice was still a bit raspy and low.

"You sound so hot in the morning. Haha, Im glad I can finally say that." He chuckled to himself.

I felt my face heat up a bit.

"T-thanks..." I was feeling nervous for some reason.

Maybe my low self-esteem was just getting to me, I thought.

"You alright?" His face fell, it was now full of concern.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I smiled a bit. I didn't want to worry him.

"You know you can tell me anything, right? I'll help you through anything, baby. I promise." He kissed me on the forehead, and wrapped me up in an embrace.

"I love you." I whispered into his chest.

"I love you, too. Always." He promised me.

"Maybe we should get up for the day?" I asked.

"Ehhh..Can we cuddle a little longer? You're so warm and it's cold in here." He buried his face in my hair.

"Of course." I giggled and he leaned down to peck me on the lips.

I began to listen to his heartbeat and it made me really happy for some reason.

I placed my hand on his chest to feel it too.

"What are you doing?" He chuckled.

"Feeling your heartbeat." I was now smiling up at him.

"How come?" He asked, now looking down into my eyes with a slight smile.

"It's nice to know that people all have a different reason for living. We all find a reason to keep living. It's really an interesting thing to me." I trailed off a bit, my eyes full of amazement.

"Now that you bring it up... that is pretty cool." He smiled down at me.

His face became serious, and he cupped my cheek, lifting my head up.

"You're the reason my heart is still beating, Kevin..." His eyes were full of emotion. He closed them shut and took a deep breath.

I knew he hated crying in front of me, he'd always make excuses to evacuate the area when he was upset.

"It's okay, Alix. Just let it out, there's nothing wrong with letting your feelings out." I whispered to him, reaching up to kiss the tip of his nose.

That made a sad smile spread across his dark pink lips. His eyes began to well up with tears that threatened to fill over the brim.

"I wouldn't be here without you..." He paused for a moment to recollect himself. "I was so lost and depressed before you came back into my life, before Ghost Town. Even though you didn't know it... you saved my life."

He finally began to sob into his hands, I sat up with him and held him in my arms.

"Do you want to talk about it, Alix? It's okay if you don't... but you should probably let it out." I lifted his face by his chin and kissed his lips softly.

He blushed a light tint of pink as I wiped his fallen tears with my thumbs.

His brown eyes sparkled as the low candlelight reflected off of his watering eyes.

We ended up spending the next few hours talking endlessly about his past suicidal thoughts.

It hurt so badly inside to hear him talk about his problems, finally releasing all of the emotions that he kept bottled up for so many years.

I shed many tears also as I opened up to him about my rough past of being severely bullied in middle and high school, and how I became depressed and am now really self conscious due to it all.

I wasn't trying to put all the focus on myself and be a pretentious asshole, but Alix didn't want to talk about himself anymore and told me that if I needed to let anything out, it was the perfect time to do so.

He was hiccuping and his breathing was shaky. I held his hand as we cried together.

He was still sitting in my lap, his face buried in my neck. 

"Can I tell you something, Alix?" I whispered to him, I felt him nod slightly against my shoulder.

"You know that night you came in my room, not too long ago...?" I asked quietly.

"Y-yeah." He whispered back.

"That night I had a terribly realistic nightmare that..." I sucked in a quick breath, trying to keep myself from crying more. "...I lost you forever."

I immediately broke down again. I was a sobbing mess of tears.

"No, Kevin. I could never do that knowing that I'd be leaving all of this behind." He pulled away to look me in the eyes.

"You, my family, Ghost Town, all of the ghosts. I couldn't do it." He had full concern in his dark brown eyes.

"I don't think I could keep going without you, Alix." I said in between hiccups and sniffles.

"Please don't ever think about that kind of thing ever again. I would never hurt you, Kevin." His voice was raspy, and sounded tired.

I crashed my lips into his, as tears fell fast down my flushed cheeks.

"I'm so tired, even though we just woke up..." He looked in his phone to check the time. His eyes widened. "6 hours ago."

We looked at each other and had wide eyes and mouths agape.

"Well, maybe we can take a nap, then go out to dinner with the guys." He said with a soft smile.

"Sounds great." I said, smiling back.

We climbed back under the warm covers and cuddled up to each other.

"I love you" I whispered.

"I love you, too." He said and kissed the top of my head.

I thought about what dinner might go like tonight. Will we tell them? I began to worry at the thought, trying my hardest to push the thoughts aside.

The sound of Alix's heart beating calmed my thoughts and helped me fall fast asleep.