A Series Of Emotions

Ch 9: Visits

Leo's POV
"How can I relate to somebody who doesn't speak?" I sang along to the playlist Alexander had given me a link to. "I feel like I'm just treading water." I hated that I hadn't talked to him since the sleepover. It's been quite some time, and sure we've texted, but it's not the same. It's not Alexander. Maybe it's because lately I find that I crave full attention from him? But also, I should try too, since he isn't the one intensifying the relationship we've been able to barely maintain the past two years. Things have been weird the past month or two.
As I lie in my bedroom, I start to wonder. What goes through his brain? Probably nothing. I know he doesn't really think, because it probably hurts him, but when he does... does he think about me?

I notice that lately I have been leaving my Christmas lights on, specifically the ones that hang above my window, since my car is in the garage. Mainly for my father, but also so that Alex knows I'm okay when he drives by. I still like to think he doesn't want me, even though he has slowly but surely given me a lot more attention than our normal.

New Message Alert.
11:57am.

yosoyalex: hey, what are you doing?

You're still in classes.
You should be in class, because it's Friday.
I should be in class, because it's Friday.
His class must not be that busy, I assume as I'm drawn from mindlessly playing the Sims to his text by a simple ringtone. I'm shocked I still have a sense of time and reality from the past few days being so messy.

11:59am

xo.eliana: heyyo. Laying in my bed
xo.eliana: and playing the sims.
xo.eliana: Aren't you in class?

12:03pm

yosoyalex: yeah. I mean it's a free period
yosoyalex: Savvy says hi
yosoyalex: And well we miss you, Eliana.
yosoyalex: in yearbook.

xo.eliana:  Sav misses me?
xo.eliana: You're a liar, Lex.

So much has happened since Valentines Day, but so little. At first our texts were still quite formal, but now it's this relaxed, overly friendly state. You refer to me by my full name and I use shortened versions of yours. Our forms of intimacy quite reversed, yes; all while staying completely innocent. Friends. What a weird concept. Granted this has all began within the last week.
I haven't showed up to school since the twentieth of April and it's now the eighth of May. Since the flu forced me into quarantine. And then I just sort of quit without formally resigning from school. Thanks to doctor notes. But I guess I shouldn't complain.
The only people that know about the new dynamic between Alexander and I are Matt Tyler and Savannah. In which that is my fault since they're dating and I slipped up by telling Savannah, who told her boyfriend.

New Message Alert.
12:08pm

yosoyalex: technically I'm not a liar.
yosoyalex: Just because she won't tell you that
yosoyalex: by herself
yosoyalex: doesn't mean it isn't true.

xo.eliana: well both of you can do something
xo.eliana: about if it you miss me.
xo.eliana:I mean it's not that hard to give me time

xo.eliana: and affection.

yosoyalex: well Savannah has something
yosoyalex: to do at lunch, so
yosoyalex: she wants to come over after school.

yosoyalex: but I'm signing myself out
yosoyalex: to come hang out with you.

xo.eliana: no you're not?
xo.eliana: You can come over
xo.eliana: but you better go back.
xo.eliana: I swear to god don't.