Until The Morning Light (USUK)

By the Willow

Bonjour mon ami's. So the stuff above is inspiration for second part. Warning it is triggering. And this song is one of my favorites. Don't forget to vote, follow, and comment ;)

My heart beat harshly in my rib cage. The blue eyes bore into my soul. A friend.

I stood abruptly and stumbled down the stairs to the door. The teacher called out too me as I burst out of the class room. I ran through the halls tell I found a door to the outside. I pushed it open, my mind swimming with impossibly loud thoughts.

I don't know how long I stood by the tree or how I got there but I do not feel like leaving. I lean my hand on the tree and I take a breath. Anger and confusion filled my veins. The vision of my brother and his white smile filled my head. I wanted to cry and scream I wanted it all too stop. But I couldn't. It wouldn't. I was cursed to live in the absolute misery that I now called home. I stood up straight. I fixed my shirt and took a breath in, then out.

I sat down with my knees to my chest. I looked up as the sun shined through the colorful leaves of fall. I rested my head against the rough tree bark. I could feel the could ground and the icy wind through my thin jumper. But I sat in the silence, letting it fill me. Waiting for it numb my skin, my broken heart. But some things cant be fixed. I chuckled at my own weakness.

I closed my eyes and thought of the good times in the summer sun. Darkness took me and unwillingly sleep over came me.

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"Mattie, please no. SOME ONE HELP HIM." I cried as I searched for my phone. Blood covered the bathroom floor. My throat sore and tears rolled down my cheeks. My hands found my phone. I dialed the emergency number and waited as he pulled his brother wrist over the side of the tub and tightly bandaged it.

"Hello, whats your emergency?" A lady asked. I sniffed.

"My brother. He tried to kill himself. He isn't responding. I don't know how long he has been like this. He was like this when I got home. Please hurry."

"Hold on we are tracking your phone." the lady said comfortingly

"Please hurry..." I sobbed.

"Sir, I'm afraid due to the storm flooding and the tree cover near your house, no one can get too you." The lady said. I felt my heart sink. no,no no.... god no. I hang up and sink to my knees. mattie why. no...

His arms were covered in deep vertical cuts, purple and yellow colored bruising around the lacerations indicated they had been there for hours. The lack of blood from the wounds told me that he was gone. My brother was gone. We had just made pancakes earlier. had danced to horrible music and played video games.

I thought he was getting better. I didn't see it. Its my fault. Tears spilled over again. His brothers glasses laid on the ground covered in blood. his blonde hair matted. His eyes closed and so peaceful. If the blood hadn't been there , he could have passed for just simply being asleep. I yelled at the top of my lungs and put my head in my hands. The images of my mother suicide filled my mind. Mattie had followed our mother. it wasn't fair. I was now alone.

" Why mattie. why did you leave me alone. ITS NOT FAIR. I WONT FORGIVE YOU." I yelled.

"Please come back.." I sobbed quietly.

The paramedics finally made it too matt four hours after I called. They pronounced my brother dead on scene. The following days I had a simple funeral with his ashes. They put him in a small bottle with red maple leaves carved into the side. I put him next to he picture of mom and Mattie's adorable white dog that was hit by a logging truck about two years ago. sadness filled me.

After a few months I had left the family house. I still owned it but I couldn't live there anymore. I moved to far enough I could get my mind off it but close enough I didn't lose myself.

To live another life.

Sorry this is a bit shorter than normal. They will not be this short most of the time I promise!!!