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March to May(2)

This is the time when one can feel the breath of life and see the symbol of early Spring, the cherry blossoms.

I was born. I woke up in a place where other children cried for their parents care. I woke up seeing a thirsty child, aiming for someone to give them a loving hand. I am one of them. Spring was supposed to be the best season in Japan, but not for me. This is the season when I was born and my mother died. This is the season when my father gave all the blame on me and left me alone. This the loneliest season of my life. I can see the cherry blossom fall so slow and it makes me sad. It looks so lonely.

I am thirteen now and I only have one friend. Her name is Sam. She is the pretty little girl every guys in our age would like. She is so kind and thoughtful. She's the only person who stays with me inside my room during this cold spring. She knows when I'm sad, she know when I feel empty. I can say that she's the only color in my life. Tomorrow will be the last time that I'm gonna see her. The mistress found a couple who can take care of her or shall we say a new parents. The mistress said that they have wealth and they will bring Sam to America for her to study and live for good. I will miss her. This is another terrible season for a lonesome girl like me. She said that she's gonna visit me now and then and she will keep in touch so I won't feel alone. We slept and cry till the morning comes.

She will be gone. I watched her went inside that back long car as we both wipe our tears. I watched their shadows fade away.

Time passes by, I was waiting for her to call in the head mistress phone. I was going there, day by day till the year passed. I never heard of her again.

It was march again another season of loneliness. No one was with me. I was thinking about her again. As my tears fall, all the memories starts to stab me right through my heart. I cried under my pillows surrounded by the darkness and sadness.

I went to the headmistress office and asked her if she has news about Sam after the day she went with her new family.

Coldness striked me, my heart stopped beating and I felt my whole world fell apart. She said Sam was dead. I went back to my room and refused to talk to someone. I even refused to go out. I lost my world. She was the only color of my everything. Now that she's gone I have nothing. I only have this little room. I cried for my content.

Years passed and I learned how to live alone. I never asked for someone to care for me nor stay with me. Everyone looks at me with distress and shame. No one wants to talk to me. For me, I'm happy the way I live my life today. I am fine with no one. I am fine with my world. I will be fine.

To be continued.....