Heat

18th

I, Kim Jisoo is a simple average girl you would find. Living simply with an older brother, younger brother, together with only our grandmother. Go to school each day, helping my ahjuma like how a common young girl should do, follow her brother's words and obey him cause he knows a lot more than I do(?) and care for my younger brother, taking him to school.

Just like any cliché teenage protagonist in every fiction story, I don't have any friends and that's because I never get to stay in one school for a few years. Both my brother and I always transfer to another school each year because of one particular reason that only ahjumma knows. Whenever classes had finally ended, ahjumma would always tell us to go back the next day to get our papers and as expected, she wants us to transfer again. I had no idea why? I even confronted my brother about it but then he said that he too doesn't know why.

We had almost entered all the schools here in Gwacheon but oddly back in 9th grade, When one time we had returned to one of the schools we had been to. Surprisingly nobody did know nor remembered about us, even my brother's friends didn't remember either the two of us which made me feel bad for him. All the teachers and those familiar faces at that school had no idea about us. I just shrugged everything off and tried to remove the fact that everything is slowly making me feel suffocated and stupid with what ahjumma had in mind.

Neither my older brother and I had the gut to confront and ask ahjumma why. Maybe because both of us were scared and intimidated with her. We just follow what she tells us to do instead and let her decide on everything we do.

January 3

My 18th birthday

On that day after having a delightful dinner with my family in celebration of my birthday. As I was about to lay on my bed and finally rest for the night when suddenly I felt excruciating pain on my chest along with an intense heat rising. I was feeling so hot as if I was surrounded by fire, the heat started rising on my chest until it had reached up to my head and begun to slowly spread all over my body. I was screaming in pain as I felt pure heat rushing through my veins as if my blood was boiling. I heard my ahjumma and my brother shouting outside trying to open the door but they were saying the doorknob was so hot that it burned their hands while attempting to open it and they were asking why there was steam coming from inside.

I fell on the floor and just kept on screaming in pain while clutching unto my chest. I began pulling my hair in pain when slowly I felt sharp stinging pain on my scalp like it was burning and it felt like I was starting to get bald.

My vision had slowly become blurry and my body had felt numb. I saw bright light illuminating before my eyes, it was in the shade of tangerine with a hint of gold

Like the shades of flame

I had become unconscious of my body but one thing is for sure

I saw my skin glowing in radiant orange like it was made of lava. There were ambers of fire flying around like dust in the air and I suddenly felt lightheaded

and my vision went black

What is this?