How can you love a cripple (Ivar the boneless)

Ch13

Posted 4/2/18
Ivar Pov

I used my crutches to carry me down the road. I could see the dock ahead, I saw a head of long black hair helping people load the boats. I watched as thea lifts her head and looks at me the stuff in her hands dropped to the ground and she covered her mouth. I walked/dragged my legs with me using the crutches to help me. Theadora took a few steps closer now standing next to ragnar. I placed the end of the crutches on the deck and hauled my self up. Everyone was watching me frozen in place. One of my crutches all of a sudden got stuck and when I tried to pull it free but I became off balance and fell to the ground I grunted. I looked up at thea and nodded for her to come to me.(if what my mother says is true about me dying then I am not going to die before I do what ive been wanting to do for a while) she came to me and got on her knees in front of me. "If I am to die I will not die before i do this" i said to her. People watched us as i spoke. She was about to  speak but before she could I grabbed the back of her head and pulled her forward smashing my lips with hers in a rough passionate kiss. My eyes close and I feel her tense for a second but then she kisses back I feel her putting her hand around my neck. I hear people gasp but I dont care. I only cared about was this moment and that i am kissing theadora for the first and maybe last time. She pulls away for air putting her forehead on my own. "You better come back to me now" she whisper i chuckle at her. She stands up and moves away a smile stuck to her face with a blush. i look to my brothers seeing the shocked looks on their faces, sigurd looks furious. My mother looks shocked yet happy at the same time. I look to my father and see him watching us a smile on his face his eyes full of amusement. I crawled onto the ship and started we pulled away from the dock and started to row. I looked back wanting to see theadora for as long as possible. I see her running on the shore. I grow confused as to what she was doing, then the spirt horse shows up and she gets onto to running off into the woods. (What is she doing?) I soon see a figure on a horse on one of the high cliffs that over look kattagat. I squint and see that it is theadora. The wind whips through her hair leafs in the wind circle around her, her hair whipps around her. The leaves then blow down to the ships. I watch them until I feel them blow around me I close my eyes taking a deep breath in, I could smell her in the wind. I open my eyes looking up at theadora maybe for the last time in this life. (I'll try to come back theadora I promise)

Theadora pov

I had no idea how long I was up here watching the boats leave my sight. I was there even after they had long left my eye sight. I turned Agnetha around and headed back to kattagat, my lips still a spark with ivars kiss. We arrived back at kattagat during the night. I let Agnetha go and headed to my room, I collapsed onto my bed sleeping taking hold of me.

Later that night

I awoke to a bloody scream, I shot out of my bed, it sounded like aslaug. I ran out of my room to hers, opening the door to see the queen hunched over holding her stomach in pain tears running down her face. I went over to her and hugged her bringing her to me. "My queen what is wrong" I asked concerned clear in my voice. "He is dead", she cried out. I froze knowing who she ment. (Ivar) tears filled my eyes, and they fell. I held the queen as she cried loudly, my own tears silent. (Why, why has this happened to me) soon the queen passed out from exhaustion. I put her back to bed and went back to my room. I felt numb, completely numb, I felt nothing, not sadness, not anger, nor grief. I felt completely holo in side. (What was I to do) ivar is dead, taken by the sea that brought me here. I sat in a corner of my room staring at nothing but a wall, remembering every second of my time with ivar, since the day we met.
His eyes were so blue that day, bluer than the sky, who would have thought the man who wanted to kill me, would steal my heart. I felt cold, I missed sleeping in ivars arms even though it was only just for a night. I was then hit with all my emotions, I sobbed loudly covering my face with my hands. "Oh ivar why, why did you have to go, please gods let me see him again even if it is only just for a minute, I wish to say goodbye, oh please gods" I sobbed into my hands.
I looked next to my bed and saw my metal fans that ivar made me laying there. I crawled over to them holding them to my chest, sobbing even more.

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most
You're gone now, gone but not forgotten
I can't say this to your face
But I know you hear

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I'm lost, I'm missing you like crazy
And I tell myself I'm so blessed
To have had you in my life, my life

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I had the time to tell you
I never thought I'd live to see the day
When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I'll see you again

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

I will see you again
I'll see you again
I miss you like crazy
You're gone but not forgotten
I'll never forget you
Someday I'll see you again
I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you, yeah
Gone but not forgotten
I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye

Song: I'll See You Again by Andrew Gerard Hill / Michelle Lena Poole

As I was singing flash backs of me and I feel my body go limp and I fall to the ground with a thud, my eyes close and I see darkness.