Through Infinity and Past Beyond ( Perri Kiely - Diversity)

Chapter 17

Jada POV:

putting on my sports bra and running spandex pants was something i havent done in a long time. i watch as Pel pulls up his basket ball shorts and then his singlet, then he finally looks up at me. he has a smirk on his beautiful lips before walking over to me and wrapping his arms around my waist while kissing me sweetly then whispering how beautiful i am in my ear. i cant even start to comprehend how lucky i am to have him because im too lucky, not entirely sure if i deserve this. if he was to find out what i've done i don't know how he would react and that scares me. i moved away from Australia for a few reasons, and im running from people for more reasons. but im more scared of my baby Perri finding out what i've done, even though i don't regret it i saved lives, but i just don't know how he will react and what he will do. we pull away from eachother and i push all these thoughts to the back of my head, ill beat them away from my thoughts at the gym.

We finally make it to the gym and I head straight over to the boxing gloves wanting to just get these emotions out in the open in the only way I've taught myself how. I walk over to the punching bags, forgetting I came with Pel. I turn my head slightly seeing him on a tread mil not too far away from me I secure my hair back and put the gloves on getting ready.

{3 hours later}

Perri and I are just walking back into the flat. We haven't spoken much since the workout. The hole time I could feel Perri starring at me, like fire burning my body. I can feel it now.
'What do you want to ask me Pel?' I say not being able to handle it anymore.

'Where, how and why did you learn to box like that?' he says dropping his stuff to the floor and moving to the couch. I take a deep breathe and follow.

' Well you know about my dad. When I was 15 I was slightly chubby and had traumatic depression, so I decided to take up boxing to release my emotions and anger. I got involved with people I shouldn't have and did some things I shouldn't have. I made some bad decisions but I also made some serious decisions, ones that I don't regret. But it put me in danger. My father isn't the only reason that I moved. He's the majority but not everything. I...' I couldn't look at him anymore this was too serious and way too painful. He put his hand on my back but in a way it made me feel worse.
'I... The people I got involved with aren't your average "bad" people, they are monsters. And at the time I was a self loathing teenage girl with daddy and commitment issues. One day at the gym I met Braydan and we boxed together and he taught me a few things. Our boxing sessions became a regular thing and I was actually enjoying myself. One day he asked me to go out with him and his friends. What I didn't know was that they weren't people I wanted to be around. Well long story short. I went, and that was my biggest mistake. I got too involved, with them and Braydan. In the end all I had was Annie, and... my baby. Braydan forced me into doing certain things, never drugs or anything. It was always sexual. And one time he was drunk' and this is where I started crying ' and he wouldn't stop and he wasn't thinking. He was so strong and I couldn't.. He just.... I couldn't get him to stop, so he didn't. 8 weeks later I found out I was pregnant so I did what anyone would do and go to their best friend, so I called Annie crying hysterically and she told me I had to tell Braydan, so I did. He called me a hole bunch of names and decided maybe if he beat me enough the baby would disappear... Which it didn't. Once he passed out after beating me I ran to Annie and with one look at me we packed everything we had and moved states to Sydney. We worked so hard to just stay alive. But Annie was there for me. Half way through my pregnancy, I was completely in love with my baby girl, but I know I couldn't keep her. So I went to the closest adoption agency and signed forms and stuff before I could change my mind. I knew if I did this than if he ever found me my baby would be safe. So I found this amazing couple, Jess and Dan, and I gave them my baby. They wanted me to name her so I did. I named her... Perrie Lavandar. When I met you I wanted to cry because that's what I named my baby. I get photos sent every couple of weeks from jess and updates about how she is doing. She turned 1 a couple months ago. I somehow got my act together in my pregnancy and started on the degree I wanted back when I was 14 and did it for my baby. Now I'm here.' I still hadn't looked at Pel because I was petrified of what he might say.

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Hey guys, so I actually wrote this chapter MONTHS ago and didn't realise that it hadn't uploaded.... Soo happy update day!!
Please read the chapter... Maybe before this idk but it's called "WANT TO HELP ME?!?!" So please go read it and help me xoxo
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