Docious Magocious - Jyrus

What if?

Jonah's POV

"Oh..." is all I can get out.

My heart starts to beat faster than I thought was possible.

After a few seconds his face starts to fall. The nervous look on his face is replaced by a sad one.

"It's okay if you don't want to be my friend anymore..." He says, looking like he's about to cry.

And then he does. It starts with a few sniffles, but just a few seconds later tears start flowing down his rosy cheeks.

Without realizing, what I'm doing I go over to him and embrace him in a hug. Cyrus instantly wraps his arms around me and cries into my shoulder.

My left arm is wrapped around his shoulders and my right arm is on the back of his head, stroking his soft brown hair.

For a few minutes we just stay like this. Neither of us made a sound except for Cyrus' sobs which were becoming quieter and quieter until he calmed down enough to talk.

"Cyrus. We're still friends. And we always will be. It doesn't matter to me if you like boys or girls or both. You're still the same goofy little ball of happiness that you were yesterday. And the day before. And the day before that."

He starts to cry again, but not as hard as before.

"Thank you Jonah!"

"For what?"

"For not hating me... and for still being my friend."

I was a bit shocked at that. How did he get the idea of me ever being able to hate him?

"How could I ever hate you Cyrus? As I said, you're still the same awesome Cyrus Goodman as before. And I am proud to call you my best friend... or vest friend" We chuckle a bit at that.

"It doesn't matter if you like boys. It's no big deal... at least for me."

--- timeskip ---

(Still Jonah's POV)

I let myself crash down into my bed after I walked Cyrus to his house.

I still can't really believe what he told me. I can't help but smile at that.

He came out to me. He trusts me with this, and I feel so happy and proud ans honoured that he told me.

I start to feel a weird sensation in my stomach. It's like a weird tickle. I don't know if it is healthy or not but I don't care. I think I kind of like this feeling. But...what is this feeling?

I think about it for a while. It kind of reminds me of the saying 'having butterflies in your stomach', but I think this feeling is associated woth love or a crush, so it can't be that...

...or can it?

I know, I've felt this before. But I can't really put my finger on it...

...was it...

...yes...

...I'm pretty sure it was when we got to the Renaissance Fair and...

...Cyrus put his hands on my back and my stomach.

My heart suddenly stops.

Could it be? I mean...the only times I felt the butterflies were...when I was around Cyrus or thinking about him. Could I really have a crush on... Cyrus? And not have noticed?

I mean, I know I like boys. I've noticed it when I got into fifth grade and I was sat next to Oscar. ( A/N: He's an original character...and kind of based on my real life crush from fifth or sixth grade.)

I really liked him. I always wanted to hang out with him and talk to him and just be close to him.

That's when I realized that I was bisexual or even gay. Well technically that's not true because I didn't know what these words meant at the time. I just knew the word gay. But I knew from then on, that I like boys. And I've actually been okay with that pretty fast.

I didn't worry about people hating me or something like that. I just thought 'It feels good when I'm around him... I think I like this feeling' And that's pretty much the whole story.

Now that I think about it. Yes. I think I 'like' like Cyrus. I've always admired his confidence and how he always stays true to his goofy self. Which is another thing I like about him. His goofiness. How he is always happy and you always have fun with him. And obviously...he's super cute. I've always thought that. I never imagined having a crush on him. But now, that I think about it I'm wondering how oblivious I am to my own feelings.

The butterflies start to return while I'm thinking about him.

Yes.

I like Cyrus.

But...

How am I going to tell him. I mean I know I have a chance, because he just told me that he likes boys but... what if I'm too deep in the friendzone. What if I will ruin our friendship with confessing it. What if things start to get weird between us and we can't even hug anymore because it will feel different to him.

What if I lose my best friend. My vest friend.

*sigh*

Only time will tell. Maybe I'll start off with giving it a few days time. Then I'll tell him that I like guys too. And then we can talk about guys we think are cute and maybe I can find out who Cyrus likes that way. Then I'll know if I have a chance or not.

I look over to my bedside table.

11:32 pm

Wow. It's pretty late. I think I'm just going to go to bed and see what tomorrow will bring me.

Hopefully I will dream about Cyrus.

3rd Person POV

And so Jonah falls into a peaceful slumber and indeed starts dreaming of his newly discovered crush. Let's see what tomorrow will bring for the good hair crew.

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A/N: I'm back! I have finally finished all of my pre-exams and I now have two weeks of holidays. That means I have a lot more time to write.

AND...this chapter almost has 1000 words yay! (It actually has 1008 words including the Recap and the small A/N in the middle of the story)

I just want to thank EVERYBODY who has read my book. I know at some points it can be a bit confusing. And a bit crappy written. AND CONFUSING. So thanks to everyone for reading and commenting and voting for my book. It means a lot.

Other than that I want to say that in this chapter I have kind of ignored what Jonah would think and do, and made him 'me'. That means instead of thinking about what Jonah would think in that situation, I have kind of written out of my own perspective and with my own thoughts. Just so you don't get confused by this.

Well that's it for this chapter. I'm now trying to pre-write chapters. Meaning that I have at least another chapter written while publishing one.

Okay thanks for reading, have a nice day.

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