One Word

Drinks

I met a friend that drinks alcoholic drinks like wine, tequila, and other stuff. He never once pressured me to drink, but with all his talk about drinks, I started drinking. At first I didn't want to drink at all, but it all changed when I had a shot of tequila behind my parents back. The tequila burned my throat as soon as it went down, later I liked it and I wanted more. Being under the legal drinking age: which is the age of 21 and me being only 15, I have to sneak the drinks. Not being able to drink is driving me insane, I just want a drink.

Pacing and pacing, drinks on my mind, pulling on my  hair, all this driving me crazy just because I'm under the legal drinking age. Why? That's my question. Why 21? Why do I need my parents permission? Why did my friend have to be the one to get me drinking? I don't hate him, I'm not mad at him, I don't wish I have never met him, I'm happy but now drinks are on my minds. It all started when he told me he likes to drink, that's when I became a drinker. The drinks are slowly taking over my mind, so this may be goodbye for me; once the drinks takes over my mind completely, I'll be gone from the world. No I won't be dead, I would just rely in drinks much more often.

So in case I never hear from you guys again know this: I wasn't pressured to drink, I wanted to drink, I drink behind my parents back, drinks are taking over my mind, and that this is goodbye for me.