Sierra is 18 and lives with her mom and 3 siblings. Her mom hasn't taken it well after her and her fathers divorce. Find out what happens next when you read the book!
{ON HOLD}
"Jonah I don't know what to tell you! Me and him went skating and me and him were holding hands so I wouldn't fall! YOU NEED TO STOP ASSUMING THAT I WAS CHEATING ON YOU. ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND! IM NOT THAT KIND IF PERSON JONAH!" I hang up the phone. Gosh I can't stand all this arguing. That post was posted on Instagram 4 hours ago and we've had 7 arguments. At first he was very understanding and then out of nowhere he starts to get all pissy for some reason and takes it out on me. I was over at the boys house but me and Jonah started arguing so I left not wanting to cause anymore drama. So I try calling him trying to apologize but that didn't end right at all. So if he doesn't want to listen to me, I'll send him one last text. Then I'm gone.
Sierra: You have no idea how bad you've hurt me. If you just realize I love you, maybe this wouldn't happen. I still don't understand what I did to deserve you but if you love someone, let them go. That's what they always say right? So im leaving you. Because I love you. This would of never happened if you would've listened to me. I'm sorry for everything I did to you to make you mad. You won't see me anymore. But I'll be looking over you. For the last time. I love you Jonah Marais Roth Frantzich. Maybe one day you'll see what you've done.
-Sierra♥️ Delivered
I know I'll regret it, but it's for the best of everyone. I'm gonna leave with just one text. One thing that will be the death of me.
(Self harm warning please skip if needed until you see "⚠️" and a lil bit of smut)
I've been cutting ever since dad left. So a long time. I haven't done it ever since I started to date Jonah though. He was my savior. But then he just left me. So here I go again. But a memory comes to my mind.
"Baby come here I wanna cuddle and play with your hair" Jonah says as he sits up off the bed. Me and Jonah had the whole house to ourselves because everyone went out to eat. And for some reason he was being very clingy. "Give me a minute jeez your so impatient" I giggle at the pout he gives me. I walk over to the and Jonah pulls me into his chest. "Your mine you know that right?" He whispered into my ear. Then he stared to kiss my jaw line gently. He goes down to my neck and soon my collar bone. I turn around and I start to kiss him. He then starts to whisper into my ear again, "I will bruise your lips and destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I'm done, you'll understand why hurricanes have names." (damn that was deep af but very sexual and cringy😂) We deepen the kiss and you know happened next.
~end of flashback~
I start to cry even harder as I start cutting. Just thinking about all the shit I've been through.
One for knowing them One for living with them One for trusting Brendan Two for trusting Jonah Three for being with him And four for even loving him.
⚠️⚠️⚠️
Before I know it, I end up calling jack.
One ring Two rings
Jack: What's up Sierra you need anything? Sierra: I can't stop jack please just help me.
By now, I'm crying so hard I can barely breath.
Jack:Sierra what do you mean? Do you want me to come over? Are you ok? Want me to bring Jonah? Sierra: I don't care just please come I'm scared.
Then I end the call. I just sit there. Letting the blood go down my arms and on to my thighs where my hands rested.I couldn't even look at myself knowing I started to cut again. I told myself I would never do it again, especially over a boy. But here I am. Crying my eyes out. Because of him and all he's done for me wasn't enough. I guess I'm irrelevant right? That's what they always said about me. When I was in school, everyone knew I cut. So they would always push me around and treat me like shit. But when I met the boys, my whole life changed. But now I'm over here crying over a boy. Wishing I had never done this.
"Sier- WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT DID YOU DO? JONAH DONT JUST FUCKIG STAND THERE, GO HELP YOUR GIRLFRIEND!" Jonah goes in to the medicine cabinet and grabs the first aid kit."Why Sierra?" Jonah asked me, acting if he did nothing wrong. "What do you mean why? You act like you don't know your the reason why! THIS WOULD OF NEVER HAPPENED IF I WAS JUST NOT HERE. YOU WOULD BE LIVING YOUR HAPPY LIVES WHILE ILL BE SITTING AT HOME AND BEINGABUSED AND CUTTING MYSELF. YOU ACT LIKE YOU CARE BUT YOU DONT. AND I KNOW YOU DONT. YOUR THE REASON WHY MY WHILE LIFE WAS BETTER. BUT NOW IT IS SHIT AGAIN. JUST BECAUSE ONE LITTLE MISTAKE YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST DO THIS TO ME? I COULD EXPOSE YOU RIGHT NOW FOR ACCUSING ME IF CHEATING. BUT IM SAVING YOUR ASS.Just leave Jonah. You've caused enough shit in my life now."
Jonah just walks out the door. What a fucking bitch.
I'm done with him.
Ok I'm fucking pissed. I'm trinna write this freaking chapter and it keeps putting the words in bold and it's making me mad as fuck. And I also fucked up my knee so I've been sittin at home in bed cuz I can't walk. And also I am gonna start doing question of the day. And also check out this pic I took with my crappy old IPhone😂
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