Innocence

I grew up in a small town in Georgia with my father. My mother had left my dad when I was 2 years old. My dad has always been very strict on me. Everything that he doesnt believe in is a "sin". Im 21 years old and I still live with my father under his rules. He had drilled it in my head since I can remember that I would go to hell if I ever tried to go against him. So I never did. I was scared of my dad. He has beat me my entire life. I have always been very quiet and shy. I was taught a woman should only talk when told to. I have always thought that was so wrong. I hated how he was. He never knew that I knew this but he would drink all night. He was a miserable man and made everyone else miserable too. I was tired of his rules and abuse. I have always been the innocent girl who wore dresses and had to keep my hair long. A virgin of course. I had ever even kissed a guy. That was out of the question. I just wanted some fun. One night my dad was passed out and I wore the closest thing to normal and my hair in a bun. I put on a little make up and was ready to go out. I went to a local bar and got a drink. As soon as I saw him I was hooked. He was the most perfect man I had ever seen. Long brown and blonde hair, nice body, and big blue eyes. He noticed I was staring and I looked down really fast. I felt my cheeks start to burn and my face was bright red. He walked over and sat down my me.J "Hi Im Jared." I was so nervous. Me "Im Taylor." J"I dont bite hard.."He could tell I was nervous and that embarrassed me even more. J"let me guess... You have a boyfriend?" That made me laugh. If he only even knew. Me "No, I just dont know you." J"well lets change that. Im from California Im here to get away for a while and write some songs for my band." Me "wow thats really cool. I sing in the church choir." J "Oh you are that girl, huh? Little virgin girl who doesnt want to upset mommy and daddy." He winked. I was shocked at how rude that was and that he was pretty much right. Me "actually I have no mommy and I am not sharing my personal life with a stranger."