Lust and Candies

27

Jungkook's POV

Where is my angel? Hopping excitedly,  I headed straight to where I know Chaeyoung was.

She had been trying to keep herself busy when I told her not to think about anything.

I understand that she may be bored but I was a little worried she'd be too exhausted.

She never realized but I noticed how she kept on waking up at midnight,  silent tears streaming down her eyes. She was having a breakdown and everytime I was about to come close to her, I'd stop as I listen to her mumbling series of apologies.

I woke up one time when I heard her sniffling and just as I was able to move, she turned around and pretended to be asleep.

My first instinct told me to move forward, hug her and tell her everything is fine. But then I know it isn't. Even after countless times I tell her that it's not her fault,  I still understand why she still feels like it is.

I am not even sure if she had already mourn over the passing of her friend, all the more reason why I decided to let her reflect on her own, cry her eyes out and have a little time for herself whenever she was having that breakdown.

A huge smile escaped my lips as I reach the door where Chaeyoung is,  but before I was able to show myself,  I was startled when I heard her voice.

"I'm feeling stuffed," she whispered. Her voice was low but the sound was full enough it resonated until to where I was located.

I decided to lean behind the wall where they won't see me yet I would still be able to hear what they were talking about.

It's creepy,  I know but I was curious.

Chaeyoung rarely let out her emotions lately.

The two were silent for a moment and I lifted my head and gaze upward, my eyes landing on the huge space in front of me, my hands hidden on the sides of my pants.

"Chaeyoung,  are you okay?" I heard Hyeri noona asked but she did not respond.

Suddenly, I felt my chest beating like crazy.

My heart started pumping out of my chest.

"Park Chaeyoung!" Hyeri noona repeatedly called but she didn't answer.

I was about to show myself when I heard her whimper.

"I have been calling your name but you were so pre-occupied," Hyeri noona told her.

"Have you told Jungkook about it?"

My brows furrowed. Tell me what?

"Of what?" she asked and based on the tone of her voice, she was unsure herself.

"This," Hyeri noona stated like everything was actually so obvious. "That you're feeling this way about your relationship. That you're slowly losing yourself the more he tries to break through your walls,"

My body froze at Hyeri noona's words.

What does she mean? Did I do something wrong?

I started feeling nervous.

"No," she whispered, her voice unsure as to if her mind was off from reality. "I never saw it like this."

"I think you and Jungkook need to talk," Hyeri noona muttered.

"I haven't fully healed," she mumbled, but why do I feel like she's telling it more to herself.