Back to Depression

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Laina's POV
I woke up the next day and i was feeling kinda great

I actually had the nerve to go out of this room......WOW!

So i went downstairs to grab breakfast cause hey! I can finally get own and Jonah doesn't have to wake up early just to get me some

Speaking of Jonah, where is he?

"Hey Laina" I look behind me, only to see Candice

"Hi Candice, why does it seem so quiet in here?" I ask

"Oh, the boys went out except for Jonah, he went to the airport to pick up Karla"

As soon as i heard Jonah and Karla, I almost chocked......again

"Karla is coming today?" I ask

"Yeah, that girl never got to come back here ever since she left to follow her dream" candice replies

"I've heard, well I'll go back to the guess room now" i stand up heading for the stairs

"What? But i barely saw you eat anything"

"I have low appetites" i continue to head upstairs

Once i was in, i sat on a chair and stared out pf the window, like what i always do when i feel sadness

But I'm different when it comes to this, unlike people who shake it off with good moments and good vibes, it takes me a lot of work, pain, and tears

So in short, my sadness is a normal person's depression

I'm already depressed, didn't think it would get worse huh? But it does

Every time I'm sad i grab my pills or my little blade, this time i took the blade and did three fresh cuts on my arm but the real question i ask myself is.....why am i so sad? So sad about Jonah

He's just gonna have his girlfriend over, whats the reason to be sad about that?

(I know its short😭 but I'm trying my best to finish my corbyn fanfic so i can just work on this story for now on)

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