Love, J x

The boyfriend;

Mmm where do i start here? I am madly in love with my boyfriend(lets call him 'M') Well i think i am. I think love is a big word. I will go into that another time.

He is a pain in the arse! When i first met him he was everything i wanted. He is sweet, caring, loving. I could go on for hours.

Our relationship is in a really good place most the time. I see him 2/3 times a week in which he will stay at mine most the time. We will stay up till silly o'clock in the morning talking about random things. We talk a lot about marriage and children. For once in my life i could actually say i am with someone i would love to spend the rest of my life with.

You know when you meet someone and they turn all your views around. Everything you thought you knew is gone and sometimes you realise what you really want from life.

We have only been together just over 6 months but we was dating each other before hand for 5 months. We are best friends which is always a plus. He tells me everything. Well i hope. Every relationships has its downs and mine is known as the fan club.

Im unsure of what he ever did to this group of girls but they are mental. They send messages to me saying he is with someone else and been sleeping with people underage. None of there claims add up. They always pick the wrong days and always say he was seen with another girl on the day im with him. I spent a week with him when his parents went away. A girl claimed to have spent a few nights with him but i know its lies as i was at his. See what i mean? Its so confusing. They will do things like slash his tires on his car or send messages to his family to try and make problems. Ive learnt to ignore it, i dont know if im stupid for that.

Our relationship is very secretive. There isnt one photo of us together on social media. We both put nothing on there because we know we are being watched so carefully. It was impressive they found out about us in the first place. We don't hide. We go out together a lot so that might be how they found out. One of them may have seen us out and well yeah. People know we are together. Each others family and friends. Though ive never met his family yet. I have spoken to his mum though messages and she seems so lovely. Im so scared to meet her. I mean what do i wear? That shouldn't be at the top of the list but its a good question.

Anyway he is 26, drives a shit car and work now and again. He has one of those jobs where one week you can make £2000 easy and the next nothing. So his mood can swing pretty fast when its a bad week. He never takes it out on me though. Even when he is having the worst of days he will try to make sure my day is going perfect. He is sweet.

Me and him get into bed and actually turn everything off so its just us. I love that. Its nice to know we can do that. We don't just sit on our phones or watch telly.

As you can tell we are close and do actually have something worth while. The drama that comes with this is just to much sometimes. I feel like i need to just run away from all of this at moments.

My boy best friend (lets call him 'O') hates him for all these problems. I see his point so now i cant even talk to him when things go wrong. I guess you see people for who they are when you are having a bad day.

Anyway guess i better head out of here now. Nice chat! Love,

J x