Karma, the word used to describe the destiny we earn through our actions and behavior. A man once said, " What goes around , will always come back around". If only this quote held a modicum of truth of how the universe actually works, we wouldn't be so dependent in believing that all bad will eventually be met with its tragic end.
People, are the greatest form of karma. Some of us are cursed with the kind of sorrows caused by others, unvoidable and truly heartbreaking. To live with a karma like that, makes life lonely. The loneliest feeling in the world comes when you've been scarred since the day you could remember. Memories like the first man to break your heart to be your dad or your mom that never showed up, some people have to deal with karma that they never deserved. They are the forsaken, the lone alpha wolf wandering around the dark woods. One thing about this kind of karma is that it will forever leave a mark, one not easily forgotten.
Pain and loss becomes a regular routine for a person who has been cursed since the beginning. You become vulnerable at first then you slowly fade away from the world, bleeding yet unnoticed. To be embroiled in such complicated situations, we've felt hurt at its peak yet continued without much healing done.
However, some people are stronger at the broken places. Some of the cursed are a perfect epitome of how strong you can be when being strong becomes your only choice. Some of us take our place on the top of the mountain, with an incandescent love for life despite having rough past. While some of us tumble and to never be seen again.
As for me, I live a very lonely life. I carry an endless amount of scars and I'm surrounded by fake love given to me by people with spurious claims. It is a totally different level of sadness to stay alive when your soul clearly does not belong in this universe.
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But I will stay alive, to find out which universe do I belong to and to experience what home feels like.
Also, to love again someday and to figure out who I was and who am I supposed to be.
Some questions can only be answered when you stay alive.
-Yours sincerely
