The Apprenticeship

Moments

The days go by slowly. Fourteen. That's how many days it's been since Bella died. That's how many days I've had to live without her. Anne's visited more than once but, I've mainly stayed in my room. The Council moved me to one by myself to help with the grieving process.

I'm supposed to graduate in five years with Bella. Six years barely seeing her and now, I'm never going to see her again. I'm used to disappointment. It's been a part of my life forever but, this is too much.

I'm trying to move on, to focus on science and nothing else. Owen said to be back by day fifteen, that's tomorrow. I don't think I can handle it. There's something about your best friend dying that takes your breath away.

I hear a knock at the door, I haven't left this spot on my bed for three days. He walk in, not like the door was locked. It's Owen.

"Avery," he sighs as he sits down at my desk, the papers he gave me to do three weeks ago are still there, I haven't touched them. "I know it's hard but, you really need to come to class. It's been two weeks."

I don't talk, I haven't. Bella was the only reason I ever talked. I didn't used to speak then, one day Bella looks at me and I say her name. That was my first word, I was three years old. The doctors thought I was going to be more but, Bella knew. I don't know if I can talk again.

"I'll see you in class tomorrow, if you don't show up, I'll talk to the Council to reassign you. I'm sorry Avery, I can't do this anymore."

He walks out the door, I heard what he said but, it was like he wasn't even in the room.

These moments feel like forever, and I know they aren't going to last forever but, I'm 22 now, things are different. Moments go by so fast and it doesn't feel like I can keep up. I try and try.

Owen is right but, I'll never believe him. Class is tomorrow, I'm not prepared.