11:11 | art book three

give up // vent

maybe I should just quit

art

I'll never be good
as I want
as they are
as they want

all my art pieces are bad in some way

I can't draw certain things
when I do, I just brake
they always look ugly and bad

I don't have any diversity

any life

and fun little style marks

in my art

I'm no good
I'll never be what I want to be

an i n f l u e n c e r

an I s p i r a t i o n

no one will ever look up to me

I'm not worth it

I'll never be as good as her
I'll never be enough or perfect for her
I'll never be as perfect as her

they probably don't like or care for them as much as I do for them

I'm a failure

I keep dreaming of a future I'll never have

cause I'm so fucking stupid

I'll mess up

and I can't be with them
I won't get into one
then won't get a job, love, family, or, a happy ending

they are younger than me, but I'm for sure they are smarter

I'm to damn slow
today proved it

I'm worth nothing
no one's time
friendship
l o v e

no one likes you
they are all watching you
they are lying
they don't care
she won't love you again
you're a waste of space
you're a waste of time
you shouldn't be loved
you are useless
you are nothing

I'll never make it
starve
overdose
rope
bleed
jump
drown
shoot
stab
burn
chop

j u s t
l e a v e