No Luck with Love!

Chapter 2!

When I was in middle school there was a boy that I really liked.. his name was Kenny and he was really cute.. Blond hair, light blue eyes, a soccer player and really really sweet. We were in the same class in High school but we allready knew eachother for years before from the other school. We were very close when we were in middle school we had a thing called puppy love! It was very funny and so nice he was my everything even when I was 9 / 10 years old at that time.. our 'relationship' was for a year! But before the summer vacation started we decided (well he decided!) It was better to let go and go our own ways. When the introduction week after the summer vacation started at our High school I was paralyzed when I saw him walk in the classroom! Right away my heart started to pomp faster then ever! He was so cute and so damn beautifull! I was in love with him.. (ughh those stupid teenage feelings!) When the first year was passing by I was still in love with him, there were some things that happend in High school true the years.. I get bullied a lot and I was sick of it! When some of his friends ( boys and girls ) knew that I had a major crush on him the girls go on dates with him only to make me jealous, but I didn't gave them the idea that I was! offcourse I was heartbroken only because I knew they used him for hurting me and that was hurting me the most in that time! When I spoke to him alone about this fact he said that he loved me still.. but he didn't choose me because off his friends they said If he was going to date me that they gonna leave him as friends! So he choose his friends and the girls continued to hurt him. When we were in Math class he was sitting next to me and his friends were makig fun of him all the time I was depressed allready because my dad was in the hospital the night before because off his heart my father is sick as long as I can remember! I asked our Math teacher if I can go to the bathroom and I got something really sharp in my pocket, so I left the classroom and walked to the bathroom where I was sitting under the sink.. I get that sharp thing out of my pocket and started to hurt myself and cut my wrists it was deep and I was bleeding badly.. the door from the bathroom opened and it was a friend of my from an other class, she helped me to stop my bleeding wrist and called my math theacher! I was not so happy about that! I told here that I was going to talk with my parents about this and she never talked about it again! And I hide this secret from my parent fot 2 years! After that I was home for like 2 years and thats where my obsession with the Comedy group started! They let me feel happy and they make laugh like no other! It was our last year and we all graduated.. my class were going out and no one told me or invited me! I was going home with my parents and grandmother! I was heartbroken about the whole Kenny thing! When we were 18 / 19 years old his step brother died and I was going to suport his family and Kenny offcourse. I knew his step brother for years and I worked with his sister. When he saw me outside off the building he was running over to me and hugged me so tight! I thought I was over him but when he hugged me.. I felt the same way all over again!

When I talk about Kenny or even think about him or I see him somewhere my heart still start to pomp faster and I fall in love with him all over again! I'ts true that your first love will stay in you heart for ever!! I was in love with Kenny for over 7 years and this 'puppy' Love hurt me so much!!

xoxo!