No Luck with Love!

Chapter 4!

This story happend to me last year.. It started in August and ended with Christmas!

It was summer and there was some party in our city, so I went on facebook and asked if there was someone who would like to join me to this party.. after 10 minutes a friend off mine asked my number on facebook so I did and I called her and we would see eachother there! She would bring a friend off her I knew her to. I was allready and Trish called me that she and Anna were there. After that I was meeting them more and more and I became really close with Trish. Her boy friend was an old 'Family' friend, his mother and my mother know eachtother for years and years! It was Trish her birthday and I came and there were view more people some off her boyfriends friends and some people I didn't know at all! There was a friend off him Sem and he was cute very sweet and every time I was at Trish her house he was there to! After a view weeks it was December 12th on a Thursday and I was bringing Sem to his house and we talkes in my car for like ages! He was telling me his story about his past and his ex girlfriend and stuff and I was telling some things off mine, he knew I'm insecure about myself and that my trust in Love and guys was very far away to find and that was the why I was still a virgin! And still I was feeling very comftorable with him. He asked to give him some time after I told him I liked him! I agreed with that and he was going out off the car.. but kissed me hard on the lips and asked me if I was coming to his house that Friday the 13th of December.. I was scared and he told me not to be! And I agreed! The next day it was the day off the movie at his house! I was so nervous all the time! My dad agreed that I was going with his car! Sem and I agreed to not to tell Trish and her boyfriend about this whole thing.. I was on my way and we watched a movie together, it was nice! After the movie we kissed alot! When he was kissing me his hand was on my tigh rubbing it and was going up to my panties ( I was wearing a leggin by the way!) After that we went to his bedroom and It was very soon that we were both naked! I was scared to death and the told me not to be.. he was telling how beautifull and how sweet I was and that his feeling for me were growing faster and that kind off stuff.. he told me he was wearing a condom! After a view hours, we were laying on his bed after he took my virginity! I was getting my clothes and he told me that it was time for me to go (what was weird for me!) I was 5.30 in the morning he was sending me home! I drove home with tears streaming down my face, everuthing hurt! My stomach, my legs just everything! That pain I felt for like a week! He was not gentle.. he was rough and trust hard! He knew that I was a virgin! I saw him a view times after but he was acting weird and I was heartbroken! I was a virgin for a reason! All my trust, hope were lost in love and man! And he took my virginity and left me feeling like shit! When I was going to Trish he was there and we talked a little bit and I was bringing him home.. I know that was stupid but hee I was in love with that guy! It was Christmas and I was feeling sick.. I look in my agenda and saw that I mist my period for like a week! I was going to get my grandmother and stopped at a supermarket and get a pregancy test, when I was home and my grandmother was with my parents downstairs I was in the bathroom with that god damn test! The test told me that I was not pregnant but that says nothing.. I decided to call Sem to tell him that! Yes that was stupid off me but what was I supossed to do? There was no one who I could talk to about this and I needed him.. When I called him he was pissed off and told me that if I was pregnant he was going to take to a doctor for abortion! He told me that he was wearing a condom for god sake and on the phone he told he wasn't! I cried so hard he told that he never wanted to talk to me again and that I was a death person for him! I talked with ( well he talked) for like 2 hours on the phone! After that phone call I never talked to him again! After a view days I was going to Trish and told her that I didn't want to see Sem.. she had no idea what for but didn't asked any questions. When I was with her she said something about Sem and I was like.. how do you know that? Well let me tell you guys this ; Trish, her boyfriend and Sem had a bet together.. It was how long it takes for Sem to get me in bed! But not only that after I broke with will all off them and never talked to them again! I heard that Sem was some kind off loverboy who was sellecting girls to make them a hooker! Well after I find out off that It was loud ad clear for me that Sem, Trish and her boyfriend were using me! I will never ever forgive them all! Even Trish.. she was my bestfriend well she sai that! But no that was not true!

Well guys this is the last part off No Luck with Love for now! After all this I can say that my hope for Love is over! I will never find someone because my trust in it is gone! I am heartbroken about this and weirdest part is.. I blame this last Chapter all on me! I was always so protective about myself and this happend?? How?? Maybe I am a slut! I don't know! But what I wanted for my future, my dream... Kids, getting married.. are all gone! They will stay dreams! And I will end all alone!

If any off you have some questions about it? Ask them! I will answer! Take good care off yourselfs and don't let Love make you blind! And if there is something you don't wanna do DO'NT DO IT! You will regret it eventually!

xoxo