What Have I Done {An Aphmau FanFiction}

Chapter 5

Garroths POV:

Silence...Complete and utter silence...laying awake in the darkness, feeling the cold tile on your body while surrounded by bottles..No sound..No Movement.. Sometimes it kills you, The silence. While on the other hand sometimes it makes you stronger. Sometimes you bond with others better in complete silence, knowing they're there when you need to talk. But with others, it doesn't make your situation better. Silence can be the breaking point between two people. Two people in a relationship. A Marriage. Silence means Tension. Anger. Sadness. Shock. Loneliness. Disappointment. Disbelief. A Loss Of Words. Longing. 

The Silence Kills...It Always Does...It Always Will...Because There Will Always Be Silence. 

Travis and I embraced one another in a hug that could go on forever. A hug, in a room filled with silence. There were probably a million things going through his mind. A billion questions that I probably don't know the answers too. I guess thats what happens though. When you disappear for so long that everyone thinks you've died or ran away. But resorting in the kitchen of my house was the easier thing to do. Trying not to cause anyone anymore pain. Travis stopped hugging first, he looked at me with a smile, I noticed his eyes were red and puffy..Was he crying?....Hidden behind the puffiness I saw a look of joy. The joy you'd see in someones eyes once someone they loved got out of an important surgery alive and the doctors are there to tell you that your loved one, that it was a perfect surgery with no complications at all. It was perfect. I gave him a smile, from ear-to-ear, teeth and everything. My heart started racing as he hugged me again. This time tighter then before. this one meaning something. I felt his warm breath against the side of my face as he whispered into my ear ever so quietly "don't you ever pull that shit again Garroth" I looked at him to see tears running down his face at a crazy speed. Sniffling he tried to his his face in his sweater and quickly wiped the tears but they had kept coming. My hands ran up and down his arms, trying to calm him down. His hands balled up into fists and he quickly lurched forward pounding on my chest screaming at me. "GARROTH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME" His bright green eyes were full of tears, they kept streaming down his face like a waterfall. "GARROTH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I'VE FELT" The words snapping me back into reality. "P-Pain!" I looked at him in shock. "The Pain YOU'VE FELT" I pushed him back. I'd snapped. "MY WIFE LEFT ME BECAUSE SHE THINKS I KILLED HER BESTFRIEND TRAVIS! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF PAIN I'VE FELT" He backed up, his white hair hiding his expression as he looked at the floor. He mumbled something to himself that I couldn't hear. His sweater was wet with tears on the sleeves and by his neck. My vision had started to blur up as I fell on the floor onto my knees.

Travis' POV:

One moment we were hugging, I was hitting him..I yelled...He snapped..My hair covered my face, hiding the expression of guilt and sadness that had crept across my face. Why...How....Could I talk about pain..His wife left him...but I didn't know it was because of Laurance..I didn't know Aphmau left Garroth because of that...I wiped my face with my sweater, my face still stained with tears. "I'm Sorry I Cared About You And Love You" I mumbled under my breath. I looked down at my tear stained sweater. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Garroth fall onto his knees. I ran and caught his upper body, making sure that his head had never hit the floor. I sat next  to him and put his head on my lap and ran my fingers through his hair while humming the tune to 'My Sunshine' as tears fell down his cheeks. I felt like a parental figure. But with someone I couldn't say was like my child..It isn't like that...Garroth isn't like a child...Or a brother..I looked down at him while stroking his hair and he had looked up as well, our eyes locked in one another, unable to break apart. Scared to break apart... I was the first to try and break to stare, by simply looking to my left, but I felt a hand on my cheek that had pulled my face back in front of Garroths and it pulled my face down. My lips falling onto Garroths and I don't push away, instead my fingers are viciously running through his hair. He pulls himself up and sits in front of me as our lips stay locked, as I feel his tongue come across my teeth, searching for a way into my mouth and meet mine. I slowly start to let him in as he forces his way through, almost attacking me with his tongue. We move in sync, exploring each and every inch of each other. It all feels so unreal. His hands move from the sides of my face to around my neck, up and down my back. He explores every part of me as I stay almost completely still. Letting him navigate himself around me, finding out where to go. How to pull the strings that have immediately made him puppet master. 

(I Did What Needed To Do...Don't Hurt Me)