I softly woke up to the warm sunlight beaming through the clear hospital windows. Grayson was no where to be seen so I gathered he either went to get food or was using the restroom. I was in deep thought when suddenly the door opened, disrupting me. Of course it was him. An automatic smile appeared on my face once I saw him. I don't know why this happens but he can just make me happy without even trying. I also noticed he was carrying two teddies in his muscular arms around me. He walked over to me and sat down next to me and gave me the teddies. "These are for you" he said with a cheezy grin plastered on his plump lips. We talked for a while and Ethan came to see us, which he did every day. I was so grateful that he was here for us and even though I didn't know him, he was still so supportive. We all continued talking for a while and some of my other friends came in and we all got excited since I hadn't saw them since before the crash, conscious anyway.
|SKIP TO THE DAY THEY LEAVE THE HOSPITAL|
Me and Grayson were packing up the few things we had at the hospital which didn't take long and then Ethan picked us up. He was staying at our house for a while longer and it was obvious they loved and missed each other so they were really happy together which made me happy. Me and Ethan were growing really close so that was good. I still don't know the reason why they didn't live with each other with no contact for almost a year and a half but I wasn't going to ask in case it ruined the moment and it want my business. We got home and god did I miss my own comfy bed.
Once Grayson put our bags down in my room, I leaped into my bed with the covers hiding me making Grayson chuckle and copy my actions. Although we were under the covers, we could still see each other because it was a really sunny day. We stared at each other for a moment, giggling when he stared at my lips. We both slowly leaned in and our soft lips moulded together like a missing piece to a jigsaw. I know it's cliché but that is honestly what it felt like every time with a huge bang of fireworks exploding in my stomach.
We continued for a while and it got more heated. He sat up, not breaking the kiss and sat me on his lap. We carried on for a while longer until he pulled away. His eyes were filled with sadness and regret, leaving me confused. "Sorry did I do anything wrong?" I asked. "No I uh... I just- I can't do this. Everyone I love, I hurt and I can't let that happen again" he said with tears threatening to escape his beautiful hazel eyes. "Baby that was an accident. If you could have stopped it, you would but you couldn't. It's not your fault. That driver was on the wrong lane. Please, I need you. I love you" I said, sad. "You still got hurt. I love you too much for that to happen again. I-I'm sorry but I can't do this. I can't be with you" he cried, shaking his head. "Gray, you didn't hurt me. I don't care if you did or even do and I know it's stupid but I can't help it. I need you. Please. I can't live without you. You were the one who got me to wake up from the coma. I would have died without you. You didn't hurt me, you saved me and I can't be happy without you with me" I cried with him.
"You know why I can't live with Ethan and my parents? Its because I was out and I came back very early in the morning and Ethan was waiting for me on my bed. He was crying because he was always so worried about me and so was everyone else. I would get into fights and run away. I was always rebelling and pushing people away and he was worried for me. We got into an argument and it was my fault for yelling at him and we ended up fighting" he took a breathe in attempt to control his tears and breathing but failed miserably.
"I wouldn't stop. I kept punching him and punching him and his face was messed up and he was knocked out but I wouldn't stop and after a minute, my parents rushed into my room and obviously freaked out when they saw what I did. He was in a coma and the doctors said he was probably not gonna make it. I did that to my brother, my twin who was always there for me all because he annoyed me" he was full on sobbing his heart out and a few tears escaped my eyes as well. He was so broken. "Grayson its ok" I assured, trying to get him to calm down because his breathing was seriously worrying me and it honestly hurt me to see him like this. His chest was jumping violently as he hiccupped from crying uncontrollably and he was shaking. I continued comforting the hysterical boy and he soon drifted off to sleep. I lay with him for a while and decided to go into the kitchen to get a drink and something to eat.
When I got in the kitchen, Ethan was sat at the island on his phone and he looked up when he heard me. He must have saw that I had been crying because he rushed up to me. "Hey are you ok?" he asked, concerned. I started crying again and shrugged my shoulders and he wasted no time to bring me into a comforting hug. "Hey, hey what's wrong?" he questioned. "He's scared he will hurt me so he doesn't want to be with me" I answered through tears. I honestly don't know how he understood me. "Hey, he loves you. He just doesn't want you to get hurt and I can't blame him. He's never been in a real relationship before and he's never actually fell for a girl and I know your the one for him. He won't leave, just give him time to think things through because he loves you to much to leave. We only just saw each other after over a year and still, all he talks about is you" he laughed at the end to lighten the mood a little and I guess it worked. I had also never been in a proper relationship and had definitely never cried over a boy but he wasn't just a boy.
