Roommates?; j.g

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-jack g-

Man I fucked up.

I've been sitting in my room like a bum for the last 3 days.

I should've never called her those names, pushed her, or even cheated in the first place.

She means so much to me and I still love her.

The day she said it was over that was the day I lost my purpose and sanity.

Well I need to grow a pair and go talk to her and tell her everything instead of sitting in my room crying like a fucking baby.

I stripped of all my clothing and got into the hot shower,

.......

I shaved my scruff and ruffled my hair before sitting on my bed and texting her:

hey i know things have been really bad between us and i was wondering if you wanted to meet for lunch or something so we can talk. I just wanna clear things up, also bring j. I wanna talk to him too.

I left my phone on my bed as I went to grab a bowl of cereal,

I came back a few minutes later to a response.

I eagerly unlocked my phone and read the message:

hey and yea j and i are down to meet. we can meet at the starbucks right around the corner in 10. j and i are in that area.

I responded to her text and put my shoes on as I headed for the parking garage and hopped in the car.

.......

"Hey." I said looking up at her.

J stood behind her with his hands in his pocket,

I could tell he was eyeing me and was mad but I mean hey, we're here to talk it out.

I had ordered the drinks while I was waiting for them to get here.

We sat in an awkward silence, so I decided to start off the conversation,

"The reason why I asked you guys to meet me is because I just wanted to sincerely appologize for everything that has happened within the course of the last month and a half. I truly do mean it when I say that I am sorry for everything. I know I cheated and I messed up real bad, but I'm human and I make mistakes. I should've never met with Skylar in the first place. I should have listened to J and gone with my gut and stayed back at the hotel. J, I'm sorry that I went off on you and made you feel like shit during this whole issue. You're my day one bro and I wouldn't wanna have it any other way. You're probabaly a better boyfriend to her than I was and I'll ever be and she deserves a guy like you in her life. I love you no matter what dude." I said.

"Thanks bro and it's fine. We've been through some crazy shit together but it's only up from here. We need to get our asses back in the studio and make some new music. As for me, it's all good but I think we both know who you should really be appologizing to." He said.

The girl bought our drinks over and set them down as I sipped on my tea.

She sat with her fidgiting,

"Jack, there is so much I still have to say to you. Just for the record, J and I ended our thing last week. It wasn't right and I'm sorry. It wasn't okay of me to let my anger get the best of me and do that. It's out of character for me and we all know that. Yes, I still love you and yes I still have hella feelings for you but it's gonna take a while for us to trust each other again. You and J are both amazing guys and I know J will find a girl way better than me when the time is right." She said.

"It's fine but at this point I feel like none of this would've never happened if I had just listened. I'm sorry that I hurt you emotionally and physically. I didn't mean anything I said or did that day. I still love you more than anything in the world and I'm willing to put back in the time and effort to make our relationship work again. I even surprised myself when I had pushed you because I have never ever abused any of my girlfriends. Never. So I don't know why I did and I am truly sorry for my behavior. The night that I went to Skylar's place, she kept filling my glass up with liquor and stuff but I should've told her stop. I failed my duty and I let you down with all those broken and empty promises I made you the night I gave you the promise ring. I know I keep making these empty promises I don't keep but with this one I promise to keep it. I promise I will never hurt you again but I will love you and cherish you always as mine." I said.

Her eyes were filled with tears,

"Hey I'll be back at the house text me when you're ready and I'll come pick you up, okay?" J said to her.

"I love you and I know we can get through this, I know we can. But I think we need to talk more but later on because I have something to tell you but now is not the right timing for it. On the bright side, I'm thinking about coming back next week." She smiled.

"That's great and maybe we can meet again Friday?" I suggested.

"Yeah sounds great, but I gotta go. Bye." She smiled.

I gave her hug before grabbing my stuff ad heading for the exit too.