𝐩𝐢𝐱𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

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"Why are you so ungrateful?" Suddenly my mother asked.
"I'm not ungrateful"
"Yes you are I always thought you are a bad daughter. You will never be pleased no matter what happens. The reason why I'm here is that I need to talk about something with you"

Let me guess; You need money?
"Tell me I am busy"
"It's about your health!"
"Stop lying"
"Thankless brat"
Ingrate slut. It isn't harsh it's the truth. I love her that's why I am honest.
"Tell me now what it is"
"Come on you know it already"
"Money?"
"Is there everything else I would want from you?"

That's what I mean with ugly personality. She is just disgusting only thinking about her money. Wait it's not hers it's mine.

I sighed. It's a liability to be my mother's personal bank. I stood up to get some money from a envelope I hid in a shelf. When I got back my mother was already in her jacket and shoes. And again I sighed.

"Here is the money"
"Thank you sweetie momma loves you" And she disappeared. It was nice to have a guest. Haven't had a guest since...since Jungwoo was here. Jungwoo I totally forgot about him. About his smile.

He was a wonderful boy. Let's hope the children and he will come back. I miss him even if he forgot me. I am nothing more than a friendly neighbour to him but I want to be so much more to him.

I am scared that our hearts will never understand each other. What if he already has a girlfriend? Why am I thinking of him so often? I will never have a chance to see or talk to him again. It's sad but fair.

I always took but never gave. Only when you give no one will take something important from you.

I want to change myself. I want to be recognised by him. I want to be noticed by him. I want his attention. How can I change? Is there actually a way to change my personality?

If he would love me I would do it. No that's a lie. I think I have fever since when was I so fixed on changing me for a stranger?

It's better to lie in bed and do nothing. It's better than thinking of things that are unnecessary.

Maybe I have to drink something? I mean it's been hours were I haven't drink something.

The world is unnecessary.