*you have an eating disorder, major depression, you're suicidal, and you're trying to recover from self harm // you are also 17 years old and dating Ashton Irwin for 5 months now*
You and Ashton got into a huge argument last night whenever he commented something about your friend. You have horrible self esteem issues, and you took it to heart.
You heard your phone ringing, it was Ash. You didn't answer. You decided to go find your Seroquel. *Seroquel is an antipsychotic drug which helps people with many mental illnesses such as bipolar and depression, and it can be used to help an antidepressant work better*
You took a handful, and then you drew a cold bath and put ice into it. You grabbed 5 blades from your medicine cabinet. You think to yourself, "Why am I doing this to myself?" You put the blades on the edge of the chilly tub. You strip and begin to get into the ice cold bath. You start shivering, and you slowly grab a blade.
You look at it for a few minutes, and then you vigorously slit your wrist. You start bleeding instatntly. You move your arm into the ice cold water and let the blood turn the water pink. You take your hand out, and you see that you can see tissue from where you cut.
You start sliting both wrists. Your phone starts ringing again, but you don't wanna get it.
You're now unconscious. Ash starts to worry becase he knows you've attempted suicide in the past after bad arguments, so he drives to your apartment. He knocks and yells y/n.
Nobody answers. He decides to look underneath the welcoming mat. He finds the key and unlocks the door. He rushes into the dining area and kitchen. He frantically checks the downstairs bathroom.
He starts upstairs and checks your bedroom. Once he sees that the bathroom door is closed, he goes and knocks on it, but you don't answer. He tries to open it, and it actually opens.
He immediately starts to cry. He grabs a warm towel and wraps your limp body into in and warms you. He lays you on the bed and prays that he hasn't lost you. He cries over your body until he falls asleep.
You wake up finally, surving the suicide attempt. You nudge him and wake him up. He's surprised when he sees you alive. He cries, "Baby, I thought you died last night?" "I meant to, but I don't remember what happened after I cut."
He hugs you and reassures you that everything will be okay. He apologizes to you for everything. He kisses your wrists, and he finds some bandages to wrap them in.
