I'll show you how to weaponize your curiosity
While you're caught in terminal velocity
In the mirror, I've become some new monstrosity
Eating up your generosity
Fighting the animosity
Hiding from your luminosity
Trying to continue modestly
Honestly
I'm moving on from the novelty
Save your verbosity and show me what to look for
Because I can learn to be more
I could learn to be yours
Show me what you see
When everything you see is without me
Show me what this promise could mean
Show me how to forgive
Show me how to let go and just live
This is now my missive
Don't be combative
I don't love you
But sometimes I hate you
And god damn why do I still miss you?
I should have
I would have
I could have
I think over and over
Losing my composure
Ignoring the disclosure
Trying to stay sober
Show me how to forget you
A new beginning I could grow into
If I dive, would you jump, too?
Exploding colors: pink, orange, and blue
Fireworks in your eyes
Burning fires in the skies
So fucking high
Reaching uselessly for the prize
What are you trying to imply?
Your smile still makes me see the sun rise
Can I still apologize?
I could rationalize
Or overemphasize
This cathartic enterprise
But I'll pass
My tears like glass
Running out of gas
Stuck at our impasse
Looking for some kind of contrast
Still trapped
In the abstract
Avoiding the impact
Dodging the attacks
While I redact
This god damn epithet
Lost my direction
Taking my confession
Wanting your deception
Breathing this obsession
Loving the hubris of this indiscretion
Living in rejection
Breaking the convention
Reborn without dimensions
I should mention
This expression
Of my confession
Is just a suggestion
That requires your reflection
