(poisonus dreams #1) the light of hope in the darkness.

i open my eyes and all i see is darkness.  

i take a step and the ground crumbles under my foot. i pull my foot back before i can get swallowed whole by the sinister darkness ,  for some reason i know if i fall ill just keep falling forever ,there will be no way to stop  and no way to get back out. endless darkness. i cant afford the darkness to get its hand on my soul. i need light. a bright light to show the way that's all i can see in the distance. a light. the light i need. but i don't know what obstacles lie in my wake , the light could be sentencing me to a horror of endless tormenting darkness. it could be punishing me for taking hope and trust that it will lead me somewhere good. somewhere i need to go. i don't even know how i know that the light is good. and the dark is evil. but i have this feeling ,a pull in my stomach and head that becomes painful if i stop, it tells me if i don't follow the light i will perish in much more gruesome ways than any obstacle can cause me. so i know somehow that's my only way to survive and if i give up it will cause me pain i have never known and will never know if i just keep going.

so i step. warily. being ready for the ground to give way and crumble underneath my weight. I'm as light as a butterfly but the darkness weighs me down .

I'm like fallen angel chained to the pits of hell. the chains are made of despair and grow stronger with my will to escape only when i give up or keep going will i be free. there is no in-between. but if i give up  there's only the smallest of hopes i will survive there's too much trying to still bring me down.  so i keep going.

the ground does not crumble. i think its because i understand what it wants. it wants my hope. because these are the souls that are too far gone. the ones who gave up. they are the darkness.

i cannot be in endless need for hope like these. i cannot be a part of the darkness. so i understand and the ground does not crumble.

i take my chance and i run. it is whole beneath my feet but when my foot leaves it has no more hope and crumbles to nothingness. (my feet beat in time with my heart.)... its catching up on me, my hope fades and faster does the ground. I'm closer to the light now, i reach out my hand to touch it but my hope is gone. my mind thinks it is where it needs to be. but the darkness knows better ,without hope the ground is no longer there.

i see pure light one moment but the next its gone and I'm falling all-ways falling. the darkness is slowly taking me over by every nerve, muscle and vain. i feel it spreading like poison. its  taking away my everything i have left.  and right before i give up and i am one with the lost ,hopeless souls of the damned. i scream.

i wake up to my own screaming, drenched in sweat and trembling right to my core .my alarm clock's ringing its light outside and there's birds singing .

I'm back to life ,back to hope an every night i struggle with the deathly ,hopeless hands of the darkness as it try's to take me . it never will. 

 hope it spooked you a tad ;) and hope you loved it :) - rosemaryellen