Just Because

Part 2

Andy Cyril.

I live my life to the fullest because life is too short to be wasted. I studied well, I work hard, I play harder.

Andy Cyril is somebody you will want to be with, but later you’d wished you have never even met him.

 Sa lahir dari keluarga yang complicated. My mother died when I was 10. My father re-married, to my home tutor. I can’t really remember what my biological mother was like. Because she was always busy. Daddy sa kerja di port. He always worked overtime or on shifts. My then was home tutor Ms. Cath was hired after my mother died sebab tiada sudah org hantar sa pigi tuition centre. Dia datang rumah sa lepas waktu sekolah untuk ajar Science and Maths. She will wait until my father comes home, or whoever related to me, before she could go. Kesian kan? She always felt sorry for me.

Daddy sa decided mau kahwin sama Ms. Cath. Sa pun tidak faham kenapa Ms. Cath mau juga kahwin sama daddy sa. She was younger than my dad, probably 15 years younger she could be my older sister. My dad never loved her. He only took advantage so she could look after me. They didn’t even sleep together, because my father was rarely home.

Daddy sa pun ada temper yang ganjil ni. He’s like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. We get used to it. Sa ada satu org abang, but he left home when he was 19 and moved overseas. Dia benci betul daddy sa sebab dia bilang mummy sa meninggal pasal daddy sa. Sa pun tertanya-tanya juga but as I get older, I don’t give a damn anymore.

Thanks to Ms. Cath, I was raised well. But then, boys will always be boys.

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I was 21 back then.

I have graduated from this uni my father sent me to. Sebenarnya sa tidak minat mau sambung blajar. Daddy sa sudah ada position utk sa di satu company yg dia jadi board member. Tapi syarat dia sa mesti ada diploma.

I did cheat on my exams and I hired people to do my assignments. Sebab sa mana ada masa. Sa sibuk dengan dunia sa sendiri.

I play skateboards and I once thought I would one day open my own skateboards shop. But my dad say otherwise.

"Get yourself a goddamn diploma and work in the real world. Then only think about doing business after. Everything in this life need proper planning!" Daddy sa bilang.

Sa pun berfikir panjang. Macamana mau buka bisnes kalau modal pun tiada?

Later when I found myself loving music, my friends and I came up with a pop punkrock band. I stood in front of my dad telling I wanna do entertainment and asked whether he could send our demo, because my father has very good connection with everyone in many industries.

I got rejected again. Masa tu sa rebel sudah. I didn't know what to do with my life anymore. My dad did not support what I like. He said he knew what's best for me, for my brother.

I agreed going to uni because I just wanna get the hell out from our house, from my dad. Ms Cath sedih sa mau kasi tinggal rumah sebab kalau tiada sa, dia saturang lagi tinggal sana tu rumah.

I told her, she should do something for herself. We don't know whether my dad will gonna need her anymore since we all have grown up.

Ms Cath started teaching again. She took flower arrangement class, making soaps class, and she teaches people after mastering it. Maybe she needs to start dating again since my father never gave her any attention at all.  Kesian kan dia?

Walaupun sa tidak pernah terima dia sebagai mama tiri sa, tapi sa masih hormat dia sebab dia jaga sa dari kecil sampai besar.  Sa rasa sa sayang dia lebih dari sa sayang daddy sa sendiri.

So rebel life of a teenage guy continues.

Sa suka attention, sa suka duit, sa suka hiburan. Just to get away from my sad life. Mesti mau positif urang bilang.