Just Because

Part 5 - Final

Part 5

ANDY –

Emosi sa terbawa-bawa dari semalam. Bukan niat sa mau marah si Dea hari ni tapi sa tidak dapat kawal perasaan sa sendiri. Sa sakit hati bila nampak dia sama boyfriend dia semalam. “My Future husband” dia bilang. Yeah right. Tapi teringat-ingat sa apa yang dia cakap tu. I had a very hard time to sleep too. I know, ni bukan salah si Dea. She deserves to be happy.

Today, when she came in the meeting room trying to assist me, sa nampak jari dia ada cincin. I did not see that before. Is she really getting married? Sa mau bagi dia chance buat presentation. She has potential. I can see it from her quality of work, and her input on certain things. But my mood won’t cooperate with me today.

Sa tidak boleh kasi campur urusan peribadi sama kerja. As her superior, I want to see her at certain level. I want her to be ‘seen’. So sa start buat work plan untuk dia. Sa balik lambat haritu mau dekat jam 10 pm sudah. Bila sa keluar, si Dea masih di cubicle dia. Dia berdiri bila nampak sa.

“Cyril.. Look, I’m sorry for today.”

Sa kesian pula tingu dia. She waited just to say sorry?

“Kenapa ko belum balik?”

“I just…”

“Pack up now. Anyone picking you up?”

Dia diam saja. I knew she’s planning to take public transport.

“Bah cepat lah. I do not want to look like a bad boss. Lagipun, you haven’t heard odd things happen here at night.” Sa sengaja kasi takut-takut dia.

Sa tunggu dia. Dia cepat2 tutup computer trus ikut sa pigi parking. Dalam perjalanan tu dia diam ja. Sa lapar, and I knew she hasn’t taken her dinner yet.

“Mau pigi mana ni?”

“Sa lapar. You have to buy me dinner.”

“But..”

“Kenapa?”

“Belum gaji..” trus dia gigit-gigit bibir dia.

Sa tersenyum tapi sa pura-pura tingu di tempat lain. Sa lupa, for new employee, gaji masuk on second month. Kami pigi makan di siring jalan yg ada food truck. Sa nampak si Dea senyum-senyum saja.

“Why so happy?”

“I always wanted to try this.” Dia bilang.. Sa tahan-tahan saja senyuman sa. That tickly happy feeling to see her happy.

“Bah order lah. It’s on me. Tapi ko bayar sa balik nanti..” sa bilang main-main.

For once, I enjoyed this. I’ve been  wanting to do this with her. Si Dea tidak banyak cakap. She was enjoying her burger. I wish I could spend the night with her. Phone si Dea berbunyi trus dia minta excuse jawab phone. Sa tau tu boyfriend dia yang call. Sa kasi habis makanan sa. Bila si Dea balik pigi tempat duduk dia, she continued eating. Sa trus tiada mood. Entah kenapa mood sa pelik-pelik kebelakangan ni.

Bila sa hantar dia balik kami dua masih diam dalam kereta..