In his eyes.

Chapter two

Brr. Brr.
Sorry, I didn't contact you sooner, it was a bit of a struggle to find you..
I stare at my phone and then quickly snap back to the reality, I begin to type.
Hey, yeah it's me. Sent.
What the fuck? What does he want..
Read 11:17 .
Do you live near Bath? Want to get a drink sometime?
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"3.. 2... 1.. Happy New Year!"
An uproar of cheers and kisses, I hug my friend Katy and we giggle, I've been drinking for the past hour and starting to feel it.. I walk over to the bar for a top up and I'm joined by a handsome man in a casual button down white shirt and tight black ripped jeans. I turn to face him
"Hey, happy new year" he looks at me, his eyes are dark blue but only in this light. He smirks at me and runs his hand through his dirty blonde hair "happy new year, I'll get you this" he pays for my drink and I bite my bottom lip gently, I nudge up a bit closer to him, 'fuck he is fit..'

I'm getting butterflies as he leads me into a small room off the side of the main room where the party is still ongoing. As soon as the door shuts I tug at his shirt to bring him closer to me as he engulfs me in a deep kiss, I feel his tongue passionately twisting with mine and I start to unbutton his shirt, as he touches the nape of my neck. Pulling me in and out of kisses and undressing each other, we tangle ourselves together up against the wall. His skin is so warm and soft against mine, I've been desiring this forever it seems! and yes.. this is my first time.

That was the best night of my life.
Yeah, an hour out or so. When?

This is so unlike me, but just the fact of him on the other end is making me feel hot and bothered.
Monday. Meet me at Be At One, by the train station. 9:30pm okay?
I quickly respond with an
Okay.
I let out a big sigh as I drop my phone beside me and flop back into my pillows, I turn over for the night.

The next morning, I get up and ready, it's a sunny Sunday morning, light pours through my blinds and I squint when opening my eyes. I sort out Oscar and bring him downstairs for breakfast, he's starting to be whined and I give him a soft biscuit to suck on as I make myself a tea. After, I take Oscar for a walk to the shops, and maybe a cheeky pastry. I pay at the counter and turn around to see Katy across the room having a bagel and coffee. I walk over pushing the buggy and interrupt her breakfast.
"Hey! How are you?" I beam at her
"Hello Em! I'm good, come sit, sit"
I take the seat as she smiles at me, then looks at Oscar to give him a smiley grin and make oos and ahs at him. I tell Katy all about how Isaac message me last night and how he wants to meet. She gasps and squeals before realising.. Oscar. She says
"He might underst.." and I interrupt before she finishes
"He won't.." and I shake my head, "I shouldn't of agreed, but I really liked him" she giggles and says
"Yeah, when your were drunk, what if he's not what you thought?"
I ponder for a moment and say,
"At least it's a guys attention for an evening.." I smile and decide to eat my pastry with Katy.
On my way home I run into Laurence, I wave from the opposite side of the street as it catches his attention, he legs it over the road, stopping traffic, literally. I gaze and smile
"hey, you 'ight?" Laurence scoops me in for a brief hug and I nod.
"Hello little man, having a chow down?" Laurence laughs softly, as Oscar is eating a very soggy, falling apart, rice cake and starts babbling which turns into a squeal of happiness as he reaches for Laurence's face with his sticky fingers.
"Haha! No way mate" I kneel down and wipe his small chubby fingers with a wet wipe and look up at Laurence,
"Do you want to come over for a tea?" He nods and takes the buggy, wheeling it down the path until we reach my parents house. I would really like to get my own place.. as I enter the front door.
Laurence is the only person who knows how to make that contraption of a buggy fold down, I'm really not a handy man. I turn the kettle on and pour ourselves some tea and a make up a plate of biscuit treats. I bring them over to the table once Laurence and Oscar are seated, Oscar on his lap, reaching over to the table for a biscuit and I roll my eyes "you've just had! He's obviously got my appetite" I giggle, and Laurence interrupts "he's got your everything.. he's got your eyes, and sweet smile.." I smile over to my boys. My boys.. did I really just think that.. am I.. do I.. he's my best friend, surely not.. but I could be.. falling in love with him
I once was in love with Laurence, but when I expressed my feelings quite boldly, he kinda shot me down and said he was seeing someone. He was always the right guy.. wrong time, people say that right?
He's no longer seeing that girl, Lucy was her name I think.. or Lily.. I can't remember. I try not to remember that time of my life, I was heartbroken. Deeply, heartbroken, the kind of heart break that could kill a girl.
I look over to Laurence has he's sipping his tea and holding Oscar with his other hand, keeping him at bay (away from the biscuits).
"Laurence..." my heart begins to race and I look over at him, I bet I look well serious.
"Yeah? What's up Emmy?" I smile at his nickname for me.
"I.. " I begin to dwell on the thought that what if, he doesn't feel the same! And I'm meant to meet my child's father tomorrow.. oh dear "I can't wait for our holiday!" I burst out saying.
Just say it.. he's not with anyone. Or is he? No, you'll ruin your friendship, remember you couldn't even see him for months after the last time! But, we could be together. Stop it Em, it's not worth the heartbreak.. not again. Not yet.
He smiles widely at me and nods "me too, it'll be fun to hang out with you more, and with this little guy!" He tickles Oscar and he goes into a frenzy of laughter.

Later that night when I've put Oscar down, I lay there thinking about all the scenarios that could happen tomorrow, I haven't even told my parents yet! Maybe, I should keep it a secret. Mum might worry or worse.. try talk me out of it. She never met Isaac but she makes it clear she doesn't like him much. 'He was never there, he didn't try to contact you, he doesn't even know about the baby!' It was worse when I was pregnant, but when I had Oscar, it changed everything, my world revolves around him now and I love it.

I wake up bright and early, I stand in front the mirror as Oscar is still on his back fast asleep, all legs and arms stretched out and his little bottom lip hanging as he breathes. He's so cute..
I put on some makeup, I went a bit adventurous and tried a red lip, looking good Em! I then put on some comfy grey leggings and a white oversized hoodie, i tie my hair up in a pony tail and then go downstairs to make breakfast, my mum is already awake and ready for the day, mug in hand and listening to the radio as per usual.
I make some oatmeal and honey, I eat it fast before I hear Oscar stirring on the monitor I took downstairs. Awake? Already, it's only 8:00am.
After I've sorted Oscar out with breakfast and getting him ready for the day. I let mum babysit her grandson as I go down the shops for groceries, I am still thinking about tonight. 9:30.. that means I have to leave here for 8:30.. the train station is in Bristol though. So 8:00pm would be wise.
The hours pass too slow until 7:00pm and I go upstairs and get dressed, OH MY GOD, I have nothing to wear.. as I stare at my jam packed wardrobe.