skinny [grethan]

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grayson's point of view:

ethan is so perfect.
ethan is so handsome.
ethan is so nice to everyone.

everyone but me...

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"hey ethan, look, that fat ass is back!"

i looked up, horrfied. i just know they're talking about me.

i gasped as a rough hand grabs my love handle harshly. i look up into hazel eyes. god knows i can get lost in them.

"i hope you realize that you truly are fucking disgusting." he snarls in my face.

i try my best to hold in the tears... but i can't.

ethan and i used to be friends... best friends. all the way until middle school. he started to hang out with jack and changed. jack never liked chubby or overweight people. he would always call them out on their weight and make them feel simply awful.

my mother would always tell me that i just have some chub to make me more cuddly.
at first, that used to help me feel better but now? please, no need to lie.

no one wants to cuddle with someone who has a whole bunch of blubber.

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there's a new kid at school today. his name is alex, he seems very nice; i was picked to be his tour guide. maybe he'll stick with me and not ethan and jack?

we both arrived at lunch, he smiled as he sits next to me. "are your other friends coming?" he asked. i got flustered, "o-oh! no... i um i don't have..." i looked down embarrassed. alex's eyes widen, "i'm so sorry, I didn't mea-" "it's fine. how do you like the school so far?" i take a bite of my pasta.

"its cool. i met these two guys at my last period." my heart dropped. "who are they?" i tried my best not to stutter.

"ethan and jack."

"hey aiono!"

we both looked up to see ethan and jack walking this way. i panicked and began pulling my sweat shirt down. ethan noticed and smirked. "hey gray? maybe you should skip a few meals. it would really help."

i pushed my food away. alex furrowed his brows a bit but didn't say anything.

"yeah, grayson. take some hunger suppressant and work out. turn all those rolls to a six pack!" jack lifted up his shirt to show off his toned stomach. i looked away and bit my lip.

"okay..." is all i said.

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once i got home, i went straight to my bedroom then to my bathroom.

i took off my shirt and looked at my chubby body. i frown at my reflection. i truly am. disgusting.

i turned on the shower and got undressed. i kneeled over the toilet bowl and stuck two fingers down my throat.

'here's to fitting in.'

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after that, i took a nice shower, brushed my teeth and headed downstairs to do some homework.

"hey sweetie, dinners almost ready."

i stopped working and looked up at my mom, "oh... i'm not hungry. sorry." i bit my lip as she nodded, "okay, are you feeling sick?"

"uh, yeah. i am, must've been the school's lunch." my mom smiled and ruffled my hair, "alright, i'll pack you some nice lunch tomorrow." i widen my eyes, "n-no! it's fine. i'll eat that." she placed her hands on her hips. "grayson, i  am going to pack you lunch and i  better see you lunch box empty tomorrow. understand?"

i  nodded and she smiled. "okay, finish you homework sweetie and feel better." she kissed my forehead.

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i got into my bed and looked up at my ceiling. it was covered in glow in the dark stars.

tomorrow, I decided to buy some hunger suppressant. i'm sick and tired of being known as the chubby kid.

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