Life With Josh (Discontinued)

Betrayal

  I then saw him pull up into a little driveway but he didn't get out. Wait, he is calling somebody and has the receipt out. I thought for a minute if he really loved me he wouldn't call but he put the phone down so I think that he will talk to me about it. The next day he called and said that he needed to talk to me in person at my place, I asked him when but he didn't give me a straight answer, so i asked about six-o'clock and he said yes. When he came and sat down he seemed tense. I asked what he needed me for and his reply was different then all of the other times he has talked to me, I couldn't put my finger on it but I know that I have heard it in my life before. I realized it was sorrow as he finished his sentence I realized that he said that he did go to the waitress's place last night. I got so angry that I almost punched him, but then I heard something else in his voice as he said he was sorry, it was regret. I then stopped and thought for a second about if I should keep him as a boyfriend. That's when it came to me. It was a smack in the face. I realized he needed me to stay. I said that I don't know if I could forgive him but I will try. I also said that I wanted him checked for an STD because I didn't know if the waitress had one. I then thought for a second and said that if he got the waitress pregnant then he will be the father and I will leave him. Also I said that I would not publicly shame him. After that he looked about twenty years older, I felt bad but I stood my ground. I finally told him why he needed to be the father if she was pregnant..... it was because when I was younger my father dated a lady and had two kids with her. The lady's name is Diane. When their relationship got rough she would blame him even if it was something she did. When I was five my half sister was abused. At first my sister said it was a guy named Andy but then Diane and my dad's relationship was getting rough then at the next court date my sister said it was my dad. Over the years of my life he was in and out of jail because he wouldn't follow the rules. I felt like it was my fault all of my life. He then said that he understands and promised that if she was pregnant then he would be the man the kid would need. I asked if that was all of the things that he wanted to discuss with me. He said yes and left.