Love That Could Last Forever [BoyxBoy]

The Baby Blues

It didn't take very long for the realization of Logan's words to sink in. But it is taking long for Angry Eyes to even look at me. Or to even be in the same room with me. I don't blame him, though. I wasn't much for talking either. Or sleeping. Or even eating. Everything changed in an month. My whole life. Everything I knew and all the wisdom I had, was swept away. Because this wasn't something I've dealt with before. This wasn't something I had any knowledge in...And to be perfectly clear, I was terrified. Would I be a good dad? Would I be able to raise the kid right?

Would Angry Eyes even want to keep it? Would he actually stay now that he knows he's pregnant with my baby? I didn't know. For any of it. I was completely out of my league here. And it made my insides burn up in flames. How could I be so stupid? Not remembering the most important thing for homosexual Immortals. That we can carry children too. But that didn't matter now. There wasn't any going back. What's done is done. And Angry Eyes and I will have to pay the price. Even if I had a feeling Angry Eyes didn't want to do that with me...

"James, you really need to eat. It's not good for you to go days without fluid either." I lifted my head off the couch pillow I've been currently laying on for the last hour, and I stared up at Logan with emotionless eyes. I know he's concerned, but really, I wasn't up to doing anything other than go to work, and coming home to try to sleep. Food wasn't that important when you are an immortal. Because, well, we can't die. Probably get terribly skinny. But nothing more.

"I'm not going to die, Logan. Alright?" I know I was being harsh. And unnecessarily rude, but that's only because I haven't been getting much sleep these last few weeks. The reason being? Angry Eyes was sleeping in my bed, and wouldn't allow me to sleep with him. No, not sexually. Just basic sleeping. Even though the first wasn't allowed either. No, that was far from being allowed. That was banned. And to tell the truth, I was more than okay with that.

"Just fuckin' eat the dinner I made you, James." Even if I wasn't looking straight at Logan, I would still know he was in an bad mood. His tone. The strain was at it's breaking. And so was Logan. His face said it all. The way his chocolate eyes were now hardened to the very core. And his skin color went from pale white, to firetruck red. He was furious.

But again, I didn't care. About anything...

"Whatever, just go. I want to be left alone." This time, I was cold. Not harsh, or even rude. Just plain cold. And I was never cold with anyone. That just wasn't me. Or is it? Is this the real me? This cold heart of a boy. How would my kid feel about me? Would they be proud to have a father like me? Would they ever grow up? Oh my god...The kid might never grow up! They might be stuck in infancy for the rest of their life. I couldn't do that to a child. That would be a terrible life...

Now I was actually thinking about the baby. Which I really shouldn't. What if Angry Eyes doesn't want to keep it?

"I'm not going to leave you alone, James. Because I know you are in agony. I can see it deep in your eyes. " Said eyes doubled in size. "And I know why. So why don't you go up those stairs and make up with Kendall. Talk this out, and figure out what you are going to do about this baby. Because it's not going to go away all on itself." Logan's voice rung out through my head. Even if he is furious, Logan would always be there for me.

Which now made me feel guilty about being so harsh with him. I really didn't hate him. I love Logan like a brother. And I did make a promise I wouldn't treat Logan, the way I treated my own brother. Starting today, Logan is going to be treated better. He deserves it for having to deal with such an asshole for a roommate.

"Alright. I'll go..." I muttered, my voice soft as a whisper. I didn't know how this conversation would go. Because really, when we found out. Angry Eyes was off me in seconds, and he ran straight for my room. And that's how it's been since that day. Which was...A month ago today. Yes, one whole month of not speaking to one another. Or even touching one another. We're back at the same place we started. Him hating me, and I'm stuck being alone.