The Amity of All

3.

3.

E l l i p s i s

"I don't know what kind of world is that. But, Calliope leave that shit, you ain't gonna do with that! I saw a while ago in your cellphone that it was full of bullshits crap. Leave that or I'll make you. Choose, dear." I bow my head, the tears I kept with are starting to fall.

My Mom saw my cellphone, and due to her curiosity she picked it up and did the searching.

"Are you even listening?!" She hold my arm and make me face her.

"Yes, Mom." I said.

"Leave that bullshit, Calliope. Leave that!" She rolled her eyes at me then walk away.

"If I can, Mom... Matagal na akong umalis." Nakayuko kong bulong.

I don't know what to do, my world is starting to crash again. The moon that I want to get is now  blurry. The stars I'm picking are slowly fading. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin, pinapaalis niya 'ko do'n dahil sa nakita niya?

What kind of fucking excuse is that?! Alam niya bang karamihan ng nasa Dummy World ay 'yong mga taong depressed and feeling hopeless? How could she?!

Ina siya, its should be her na dapat unang umiintindi sa'kin. But, hindi. Siya ang unang nagbababa sa'kin. Siya ang unang tatawa kapag may nangyaring 'di maganda sa'kin. Tanging pag-intindi lang hinihiling ko sa kanila ni Daddy, hindi niya pa maibigay?

I don't need those fancy things. I don't need the money. I need them... Not only verbally, physically and mentally also.

In-open ko ang dummy account ko para sana ilabas ang saloobin ko pero habang patuloy akong nag-scroll pataas, puro bad news ang nababasa ko. Puro away at issue ang nakikita.

Chinat ko lahat ng kaibigan ko by PM, 'yong mga taong handa akong matulungan. Pero ni isa sa kanila walang nagr-reply. Nakita kong online si Azazel kaya nag-iwan din ako nng message sa kanya. 'Di na ako nagbabaka sakaling sasagutin niya iyon ka-agad dahil mahirap siyang makausap, lalo na't busy din siyang tao.

Azazel sent you a message.

"Is there a problem, Elli?" She replied.

Tuluyan na akong napaiyak dahil sa sampu mahigit na chinat ko siya lang ang nagreply agad. Siya agad ang nakadama ng dala-dala ko.

"How did you know?" Sinend ko na ang reply ko at agad na tumunog ang cellphone ko.

"I just feel it. Is this about your family?" She said.

"Yeah." I said.

"What is it? You can share it to me, alam mo namang importante ka rin sa'kin." Aniya.

"My Mom wants me to leave dummy world..." Sabi ko.

"WTF?! Paano niya 'to nalaman?" Sino bang hindi magugulat?

"Na-trigger siguro siyang i-open ang cellphone ko. Then ayun, nakita niya ang facebook account na nakalog in." Nagreply din si Ryu. Pero inuna kong reply-an si Aza.

"You can lie low naman, limitahan mo na lang talaga muna para 'di halata. Don't worry, okay lang naman 'yan kahit sa laro natin." Reply niya.

"Hmm. Okay, hindi ko na kasi alam gagawin ko about rito." Sabi ko.

"I know dummy is our life, but don't let dummy take all over your system. It might ruin you at the end because you give all your investment to a virtual world, where everybody have faken and hid their personality nor identity. Live a life, be productive enough, even na napuputangina ka na." I laugh at her last word.

Well, we have our own perspectives and she have a point with that.

"Anddd, wala akong kaibigan na mahina, o k a y? Let's fight our own battle together." It's good to know that she treats me as her friend. She made my day with her statement.

My phone beeped again and someone sent me a message.

Samarah Primordials sent a message.

"Aza, told me that you're leaving? Iiwan mo na 'yong nagka-crush sa'yo?" She said.

"Uhm, no. Not at all. I just need to lie low, because my mom caught me using dummy account..." Then I remember, that this is illegal she said. Lol

"She told me that dummy is full of trashy people, I just let her because I know that her mind is close with other things and besides, I also need to be productive. Palagi na lang akong nasa bahay and school. Kaya siguro kaunti lang ang friends ko sa real world. Kaya it's better if mag-inactive ako muna." I added.

"Hmm 'kala namin aalis ka na e..." Sabi niya.

"Alam ko na may kanya kanya tayong problema at bawat isa sa'tin ay pinaghihinaan ng loob dito. Pero lagi mong tatandaan kaya tayo nandito at nagkatagpo-tagpo dahil may plano si God. Malay mo, kaya pala Niya tayo dinala sa dummy, kasi He wants us to overcome our weaknesses and biggest fears through virtual friend." She added.

Yeah. She's right. He have His plan...

"I don't know what to say. I am speechless, but thank you very much." Kaagad siyang nag-reply.

"Naniniwala rin ako na hindi lang tayo magkakaibigan sa dummy, someday, magkikita tayong lahat. 'Di man lahat or paisa-isa lang basta makasama natin ang bawat isa. Iyon, matatawag na nating magkakaibigan tayo in real world." She said.

"Magkakaibigan tayo, nangyayari rin naman sa reality ang ginagawa natin sa dummy ah?" Sabi ko.

Sa totoo lang, nahihirapan akong magtiwala sa ngayon. First, ang game ay nangyayari mismo habang kami ay nasa dummy. Hindi namin alam kung paano ito umi-ikot, Azazel's said. The game know the flow itself, so paano ako makakasigurado na ang mga nakapaligid sa'kin ay hindi ang deceiver?

How will I know? Are they gonna take the table down? I really don't know, actually.

"SLR. Ellipsis, anong nangyari? Okay ka na ba? Gusto mo bang magkita tayo ngayon?" She takes fifteen minutes before she replied.

"I want too, but I can't. I am grounded, Sam." At this age, my parents treat me as a kid.

I don't have enough freedom to do what I want. I'm in a very difficult situation. I am sorry to myself because I can't say it right now. Let me open myself, slowly.

"Halaaa? Grabe naman 'yang magulang mo. Ang tanda mo na, pwede na ngang magka-baby e." She's really like that.

"Sira ka! Study first, okay?" I told her.

"Kumain ka na ba? Baka nangangayayat ka na, kawawa ka niyan sige ka. ☹ Ayaw ni Eros ng payatot hehe." And now she's mocking me. I love Eros, but it's just a feeling. I'm not treating the love I have for him as special, I'm afraid that it might grow and makes me feel the stars up above with moon.

"Yeah. Ang sweet mo talaga. Hahaha." Sabi ko.

Tumingin ako sa paligid ko, nasa isa akong coffee shop sa Ortigas. My mom have a business and I need to be here as her trophy. Call me everything, but that is true.

I am a trophy to them, kaya I need to maintain my grades whatever the cost of it. It's hard really, because I just want to graduate in college as a simple girl. No latin honors, no special mentions and so on. But my father is pushing me to achieve latin honors. While my mother is pushing me to do better than her.

My parents are intelligent, unlike me. Itinatayo na lamang sa anino nila upang maipagpatuloy ang naumpisahan nila.

DK: Next chapters will be a group chat and group ang way ng pag-uusap nila. We're in Dummy World po, virtual chat/group and they have a game which is Descending Extricate.