H E R

im sorry

I'm sorry I let you fall blindly into something you had no knowledge of. I'm sorry for letting you stay in this toxic abyss of a thing we called love. I'm sorry for letting your first be what ever the fuck this was and I am.... I hope you find someone as amazing as you are and learn from the wrongs we committed. God we were so bad for each other at times but you were my favorite sin... And I'd do it all again if I could...I'd give anything for just one more I love you even if it was forced because you didn't understand what anything like that was. To hear just a millisecond of your voice again.  To see that beautiful smile just one more time. I wish we could be friends because anything is better than nothing. Your mom still wants to talk to me, she is still calling me her daughter in law. I had such high hopes for our future, I knew we wouldn't last forever but I was hoping for some type of future I though it we'd last longer I really did.... I'm sorry