Tattoo (A Neighbourhood Fanfic)

Chapter 34: Same Mistakes

Songs for this chapter:

•Lurk~The Neighbourhood

•Habits (Stay High)~ Tove Lo

•When I was your man~ Bruno Mars.

•A Thousand Years~ Christina Perri

Jesse's POV:

I take an other shot from the third bottle of vodka in that evening. The liquid now numbing my throat from the burning sensation, shhhing the voice. I grip the bottle, stumbling on my own feet. I feel the liquid swishing inside the container, distracting me from the music blasting from across the room.

"Yo, Jesse!" Zach shouts making me turn around to face him. "Whaaaaat?" I slurred, trying to hold into something. "Dude, easy on the alcohol. There won't be any left for everyone," he said taking the bottle from me. I growl at him snatching it back. "Leave me, the hell alone," I snap making him jump back. "Alright," he said pouting, and trudging away.

I take a deep breath running my hand through my hair.

He was with her.

He is with her.

I clutch my stomach as acid dripped from my mouth into the marble floor.

He was with her, when it should be me. Me holding her hand, and kissing her. Me who should've picked her up from rehab, and making her feel safe. Me who should be looking at her blazing green eyes in the dance floor.

I see her laugh at something as he pulls away from her ear. Her cheeks pink under the club lights. His hands go to her waist, pulling her close to him, and he spins her around, her black hair flying. I narrow my eyes at the way her blue dress rises up her thigh and he pulls it down.

That's it.

I walk by them making sure to bump into Zoe. "Oops, my bad," she said as she turn to face me. I see how her eyes widen, her face going pale. Is that how I make her feel? Scared? Afraid?

"Zoe," I breath out and I see hew nose scrunch up. I than remember how she never liked alcohol and I bet I reeked of it. "Jesse," she said stepping closer to Bryan. I bite my lip, holding in the emotions about to spill in front of my feet. "Can I talk to you? Please?" I beg couldn't take it no more. I need to talk to her. I needed her to know how I felt, taken or not.

I see her uneasy as her eyes roam all over my face, and stop at my eyes. Her face softens a bit noding. "Sure," she said. She turns towards Bryan and whispers something in his ear, giving her a small kiss on his cheek.

I take ahold of her hand leading her out of the crowd. We make it out of the club now in the alleyway. She stands a few feet away from me, clutching her arms. She stared at me with her bright eyes and I get lost forgetting why we are here.

What was wrong with me? How could I let go of such a beautiful girl, someone who understood me so well, for someone who only wanted me for my money. Who just wanted something materialist out of our relationship, while Zoe just wanted love. Love.

"Jesse what do you want?" Zoe speaks quietly, snapping me back to realty. "You look beautiful," I slip and I see her cheeks flush. "Thanks," she said smiling at me. I take a deep breath and steady myself to what will come out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doing what I did to you. For not appreciating your love, and your faithfulness. That now I have to see the greatest thing in my life be with someone else, because I didn't know how to care for it. That now, while I wish I didn't do it, cheat, he is there waiting for you. Always waiting, and I've lost. I just want to say that even though I don't have you no more, I still love you. Still do and always will," I spoke out, feeling Tears slip from my eyes.

Zoe stays still, her eyes red, but not moving. She sniffs quickly, and smiles at me.

"Thanks. For admitting it," she said stepping closer to me, until now she was in front of me. She grabs my face in her hand gently like I might break, and I feel my lips quivering.

"I will always love you Jesse. But just like I love you, I love him. I love him so much," she said softly. I feel my heart being clench and I realize how even though we aren't even together, she will always do this to me. She will always have this control over me, that I even can't control.

I lean to her face but instead of kissing her, I plant my lips on her soft cheek. I wrap my arms around her, pulling her into my embrace. "Thank you," I hear her whisper and I look at her confuse. "What?" I said confuse and I see her take a deep breath. "If it wasn't you, I wouldn't have been clean for 5 months now. I haven't cut, because I don't have a reason anymore. I got treatments, and went to therapy and when there are days my skin crawls, all I have to do it look at Bryan," she said smiling looking down at her arms. I smile happy, that after all this I still could be a positive effect to her.

I hear foot steps down the alley and I turn around to see a man walk with his head down. I feel a chill down my spine and I pull Zoe closer to me. "Jesse-" but I cut her off. "Stay close," I whisper lowly so he wouldn't hear. I watch from the corner of my eye, as he stops a few feet behind behind us. I grab Zoe's hand and start walking towards to the club door.

"Don't move," he says, hearing a gun clock. I stop frozen me in my steps. I look down at Zoe to see her eyes wide with terror. "Look, we don't have money," I say slowly turning around with my hands in the air. He moves the gun aiming at Zoe and I stop.

"What do you want?" I snap, feeling the alcohol leaving my system.

His eyebrows arched his eyes on Zoe. I grab Zoe, putting her behind me. "What do you want?" I repeated again, anger filling up my voice. His eyes snap back at my mines, his face pulling up a toothless grin. "The girl," he says inching towards us. I walk closer to him putting myself in front of the gun. "Fuck no," I snarl and I see his finger go to the trigger.

He puts the gun towards my stomach and that is when I grab his hand, trying to snatch the gun out his hand.

"STOP!" Zoe yells, trying to move towards us, but a bang sounds silencing the quiet night. I look down just as the guy looks at me his eyes wide. I see red in our hands, and I try to gulp.

"Jesse!" Zoe runs to me, as I feel my body slump to the floor. "HELP! Someone help!" she yells, tears filling her eyes. My eyes start seeing hazy, my vision focusing to the stars behind her. "Jesse, talk to me," I hear Zoe's voice, distance in the cold night, as darkness overtakes me.

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{Authors Note:

I can't believe I did this. O.O

Just a little fact that this is book is soon coming to an end. Just a heads up.

So what do you think? Comments? Likes? Feedback?

~mystetybox_C