Run

chapter 8

We get home and get inside without any problem. I walk straight into the kitchen to get a can of coke and pop guns and roses into the DVD player. I crack open everything everything and try to distract myself from everything that's going on. Jenna walks into the living room and sits down on the couch next to me. "So how did it go", she asks genuinely intrigued. "Good Leah got two toys I got two CDs and this book and our outfits are on the couch", I say showing her the cover of the book and pointing to the love seat to the right of me. "Cool what CDs did you get", she asks trying to get to know some of my interests I suppose. "Dookie by Green day and the guns and roses greatest hits", I say sitting my book down. "You are literally me even though I haven't seen you since you where eight months old", she says chuckling. I laugh and feel her about to tell me something she didn't want to start. "So tommorow is the viewing and funeral how are you feeling about that and i also went to the courthouse and filed for custody of both of you the court hearing is the day after and we leave for mexico the week after i just need to get where your heads at", she says looking at me sadly. "I just cant deal with the fact that mom is gone and im completely fine with you getting full costudy of me and Leah. I mean i trust you with my life your all we have. Dads family is from cuba and moms is from mexico, and I'm ready to finally get to mexico I'm tired of the states for a while I may come back later but I doubt itll be till I'm older", I say in just a rush of words. " i get that mija", she says pulling me into a hug. "I'll order a pizza and we'll set up a movie and try to forget about everything",she says walking into the kitchen. "That sounds good", I say sitting my book down walking into the kitchen. We play with Leigh and her barbies until the pizza comes. We watch the outsiders while eating pizza and just trying to forget about the fact that moms "Going Away party" is tomorrow and the day after that is court and that next is leaving week. I look over to my right and notice that Leah has fallen asleep on my shoulder with her princess teddy under her arm. "I'll take her", I say before scooping her up in my arms and walking into Moms room. Is it bad that I'll always see this as just the room my Mom died in, probably but what else can I do at this time. I sit Leah on the and start to walk to the door when I hear a small voice say "Scarley". "Yeah squirt what's up", I say walking back over to the bed and sitting next to her. "Are we gonna be ok", she asks looking down. "Yeah why would you ask of course we're gonna be fine", I say tucking a curl behind her ear. "Well mommy always took care of us and now that she is going to visit Jesus, she's not gonna be here to make sure you don't get hit by the black water guns", she says with confusion in her voice.  "Well Mommy left Jenna in Charge and Jenna's gonna take care of us like mommy did", I say to her tucking her in the covers more. "Will you sing to me Scarley", she asks me I would assume giving up on the conversation or I finally made her feel better. "Of course Bug what do you want me to sing", I ask pulling her into my side. "This is me from disney", she says rubbing her eyes and yawning.

When i finish singing she is peacefully asleep in my side. I carefully pry her away from my side and peck her head before exiting the room. I walk back into the living room and plop on the couch next to Jenna and listen to them go back and forth on how gun control is way to loose in this country. They keep talking about how we should be able to carry pistols or shotguns but not stuff like Jenna used when she was on her tours. I feel the same about it honestly if we had no guns in this country I'd be dead but I've been targeted by a AR-15 back when we where in Birminham Alabama and it sucked. I hear the cut of the cigarette lighter and am brought out of one many PTSD flashbacks. I didnt even know I was crying until I feel Jenna bring me into a hug. She dosent say a word she just lets me cry. I cry for about 10 minutes and finally am finally just left with hiccups. "You wanna talk about it", Jenna says letting me go and light another cigarette and handing it to me. I look at her like shes crazy. "Its the only thing I got that could calm you down", she says rubbing my back. Ive smoked before but i never thought i would get one from an adult so willingly. I take a long drag on it and just let the nicotine set in. I dont condone smoking and if I ever catch Leah smoking I'll kill her but, it feels like for the first time in days I can finally breath. "Thanks and how did you know", I ask curiously. "I see the way you look at me when I have ciagrette like thats all you want especially in the last few days", she says lighting one up for herself. "I keep having flashbacks of the past few years and sometimes it catches up with me", i say taking a small drag off the cigarette. "I do the same thing with war memories I can't tell you it get better but it gets manageable", she says pulling me into a hug. We talk for about thirty more minutes until I fall asleep on Jenna's shoulder finally able to sleep peacefully knowing I'll be taken care off.
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Well this chapter eight like 80 years later but we hope you like it *warning unedited may have gramatical errors please forgive us* we love you guys to infinity and beyond
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