Run

Chapter Nine

Today is the day, its moms funeral day. I wake with sun pouring through the blinds from the couch. I still sleep on the couch still because I dont feel comfortable not being where I can see the house from all sides. We may have not had any problems the other day but that doesn't mean today isn't gonna be a shitshow. I walk into the kitchen and flip on the coffee maker because Jenna likes coffee and she's not up yet. I know todays gonna be a long day, so I think I'll have a cup to. I hardly slept last night and I doubt I'll slept tonight either court's tommorrow and we have to start shopping for supplies soon. I walk into the bathroom brush my teeth and jump in the shower. The funeral starts at 11:00, although its only 6:00 in the morning I've still gotta get Leah ready and cook breakfast. I've also gotta get ready after that and clean my gun so I thought I'd get started. I step out of the shower and start blow drying my hair. I flat iron it and get started on my makeup. I do an understated halo eye with a gradiant from semi dark purple to light purple and do a small cat eye,with a nude lip. When I feel satisfied I head to the kitchen and start on the pancakes, because pancakes are Leahs favorite, and bacon because thats my favorite. Soon enough I hear small footsteps and soft draging of her Bear from Jenna's room. I thought she was in moms room I think as I turn around to see a still sleepy Leah who is rubbing her little eyes and yawning. "Morning bug why'd you go to Jennas room", I say picking up my getting to old to be picked up little sister. "Morning scarley and I got got scared and you where asleep and Mrs. Jenna was hugging you so I hugged her and feel asleep and woke up in her room", she says laying her head on my shoulder. "Ok, but you could have woken me up up you know that and I'm making pancakes aren't they someones favorite", I say booping her nose. "Their mine and I know scarley", she says snuggling her head into my neck trying to go back to sleep. I hold her on my hip and let her sleep while I finish cooking. She may be seven but she looks five and is still as light as a five year old. I lay her on the couch and go to set the table and wake up Jenna and Bre. I lightly knock on moms room where Bre crashed and walk in to find two young kids who look about four and five. "Hey Bre breakfast is almost ready you and the kids can come eat when your ready", I say knowing I'm about to cook more food. "Ok we'll be in soon", she says rolling over and stretching. I nod and walk across the house and knock on Jenna's room and hear a "come in" through the door. I walk in to see a fully dressed just walking out of the master bathroom Jenna. "I was comming to wake you", I say walking into the room. "I woke up hours ago I couldnt sleep speaking of sleep how'd you sleep kiddo", she asks lighting us both a cigerette and passing it to me. "The little I did sleep, good I guess", I say taking my first puff off the cigerette. "I wish I could fix it but I cant", she says pulling me into a hug. "You want to help me finish breakfast", I ask after a couple of seconds of comfortable silence. "Of course chica", She says following into the kitchen. We finish breakfast and by this time all the kids are up playing with Leahs toys and all the adults and myself are setting the table. "Breakfast is ready", I say loud enough for the kids to hear me. We sit down and eat and after we get done we start getting the kids ready. We give them all "inside Jackets" just incase we have a to defend ourselves. I help leah get ready and I notice shes looking down. "You ok bug", I say while I'm twisting her hair in the front. "Mommy's not coming back from visisting Jesus is she", Leah says sadly and it breaks every peice of my heart. I'm stunned by the question so I dont answer her and she says," Scarley I may be little but I'm not dumb she wont come back". "No baby she wont but we'll see her again one day when we get to see Jesus", I say hugging her and just letting cry. After a few minutes she stops and looks at me and says "I love you scarley forever and ever", with tears in her eyes. " I love your more than forever and ever. Ok bug we're going to mommy's party soon but you can go play with Timber and Casen for a minute before we leave dosent that sound fun", I say on the verge of tears while hugging her. "Yeah scarley I guess so I will go play and then we go see mommy right", she says hopefully. "Yeah bug one last time like you saw before but when we see her with Jesus she'll look different almost like an angel", I say kissing the top of her head. After Leah runs into the living room to play with Timber and Casen I get dressed trying to not ruin my makeup. I walk into the living room and sit on the couch and watch the kids play while playing Guns and Roses on the stereo and cleaning my gun. "Everyone ready and have their under Jackets on", Jenna says walking into the living room in a shear blouse with a yellow pannel behind it and a pair of bootcut jeans. After getting confirmation from all the kids and Bre and I, we walk out in a single file line with all the kids in the middle. Thats when I feel the bullet wiz past my head. I grab Leah who is in front of me and run in zig-zags to Bre's car and almost shove her in the car. "Stay down ok put you head on the floor and cover your ears I love you bug", i say as Bre is throwing her kids in the car. She does as told and Timber and Casen follow. I cover myself with the hood of the car and search helplessly for Jenna. "Jenna!",I yell as I fire of a round in the direction of the gun fire. "Im ok",I hear coming from the back side of Jenna's car. "Bre!", Jenna yells over the gunfire. "Im fine and the kids are safe", she yells from beside me. I didnt even relize she was there. I continue to fire off into the neighbors yard. I hear a groan and look to see one of the guys fall. I shot the second guy in the stomatch and Jenna shot the first and third in the legs. "Cover me and get in the car", Jenna yells over to me. I stand at the side of the car between the hood and mirror and wait for Jenna to run around to the front of the car. She does and I follow directly behind her with my barrel and shoot randomly at the guys dropping two with leg shot in the process. I then jump in the passenger side and we speed down the road. "Scarley your bleeding", I hear my sweet sister say from the back seat. I look down and see a big ass gash on my arm, a bullet grazed me. "Holy shit are you ok", Jenna asks lighting a cigarette for her nerves and one for me. "Im ok" I say taking the cigarette from her and cracking the window. "Is everyone ok", I ask for the whole car to hear. After I get a yes I get bre to bandage my arm. We pull up to the funeral home and by this point we are dabbing my sleeve with germ-x to get the blood stain out. I pull Bre aside and take her to the bathroom to sew my arm up with a sewing kit in my bag. The first stitch is always the worst but this time it's horrendous. I mumble profanities as she reluctantly sews up the large gash on my arm. We walk back into the parlor as I weakly attempt to sit down on the couch next to the casket. Bre walks out of the room but soon comes back with a bag of lays potato chips and a apple juice. "These should make you feel better", she says with a sad smile. "Thanks", I say with a weak smile. "You ok", Jenna says sitting down next to me and pulling me into her. "Yeah I will be", I say nibbling on a chip. "Well those should help with the blood loss by raising your blood pressure to make more blood", she says pointing to the chips. "And that should help with the nausea and this should help with pain", she says shaking the apple juice and giving me about 4 Motrin. "Thank you", I say reseting my head on her shoulder continuing to eat and sip my apple juice. The chappel men come into the room and open the casket for us because we asked for it to be opened for Leah. Jenna picks her up and allows her to see our mother as she will be until we see her again. "Mommy wake up, please I dont want to wait to see you again please get up please", She says kissing her head and crying. She eventually stops screaming and crying hugging Jenna like if she'd let go she'd fall apart. I grab her and do the only thing I can think about which start singing I sing Skinny Love by birdy. I sing the song over and over until she just passes out from crying. I lay her down on the couch and walk back over to the casket and just completely lose it but by some sure shot in Hell regain my composure enough to say last words to my mother. "Rest in peice Mamà te amo te infinito y màs àlla", I say as I kiss her head and walk away. "You can close it now", I say as I get Jennas pack from her purse and walk outside. I sit on the back steps for about two hours and Jenna come outside with something in her hand. "I had this made for you", she says handing my a necklace with a bead on it. "Its made out of her ashes", she says picking up her pack which has one in because I've smoked about ten and am still not calm enough to go back inside. "Thank you", I say hugging her tightly.  "We're gonna make it Chica you are stronger than you'll ever know you are", she says as I mesirably lay my head on her shoulder.
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1000 years later (says in spongebob narrator voice) sorry it took so long to write but it was an emotional chapter to write and we wanted to do it right. Theres been alot going on family wise for us and we just been writing when we could find time. Thank you for being so patient with us and continuing to read this story that we hold so close to our hearts.
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