Sydney’s POV
“Ruffet! Wag mong kainin ‘yan. Gusto mo bang mamatay?” saway ko sa aso naming shih tzu. Agad naman itong tumigil at nagmadaling tumakbo papunta sa likod ng sofa. Mabuti pa ang aso, madaling mapagsabihan. Hindi katulad ng mga tao, kahit ilang beses ng pagsabihan ‘di pa rin sumusunod.
Maya-maya nag-ring nanaman ang phone ko, hudyat na nag-chat nanaman ang mga kaibigan kong tanong ng tanong about sa love. Ano ba naman kasing alam ko d’un di’ba? I promote break up! Single pa ko uy!
I turn my phone off. I immediately grab my coat at lumabas ng bahay. I went to a convenient store nearby para bumili ng ice cream. Gabi na at malamig, but bare with me gusto ko pa rin ng ice ceam.
As I entered the store I walk straight to the ice cream fridge. Ayoko pang umuwi so I sit at the vacant seat inside the store. Kung ‘di nga nga naman talaga s’werte, sa lahat ng kantang pwedeng marinig, ayun pa.
As the music started, my hands started shaking. But I can’t move. Memories started to play inside my head. Heart beats increase. Everything went silenced but music still playing.
(All I Ask- Adele)
I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left
Yes, I’d been there sa lahat ng oras na kailangan n’ya ako. I was there sa failures n’ya and success. I was there at his worst, sabi nga ni Popoy. But unfortunately, kahit pala lagi kang nand’yan sa tao, may possibility na ‘di n’ya pa rin maramdaman ang narramdaman mo para sa kanya.
I was there para suportahan s’ya sa lahat ng gusto n’ya. To make him laugh while he feels down. Kasama n’ya sa mga gala. I shared all the stories of my everyday with him, sa chat man or sa personal. I trusted him so much. Siya ang mapapaganda ng araw ko sa t’wing malungkot. S’ya lang yung taong maiisip ko para hindi iwanan.
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
Cause what if I never love again?
He is Aaron. Aaron Matthew Sequija. The man I see more than a friend. But never sees me like the way I look at him. He has been my bestfriend. I always fail to keep secrets from him. Lahat alam n’ya. Buong-buo. Everything that include my feelings. And he never fails to tell me his feelings. He can’t love me the way I loved him. No, I still love him.
But if there was a breaking moment, maybe that was the moment he chose to leave. Not by distance, but because of chances.
I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes and I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters, tell me who do I run to?
But he was too kind. Too kind to tell me na’di n’ya kayang bigyan ng chance. Because that time, he’s already in love with someone else. That someone else was my sister.
He is so honest with me from the very start to the time I confessed.
And I know him because unlike any other else, I know and love him completely. There was a time I almost give my heart out in front of him, begging for him to stay. Kasi ‘di ko pa kaya. “Please, Aaron. Give me this last chance to prove you that I’m worthy.”
He was too kind to insist “No. We can’t. I can’t give you false hope.”
I was so honest with him too. Ayoko pa. Hindi ko pa kaya. I will lose him as my love, and as a bestfriend. S’ya na lang ang meron ako. Pati ba naman s’ya mawawala?
Now, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
Cause what if I never love again
Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is...
Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is...
Living in this life without him is the same like being jailed into a box with light and air. I felt like I could die. I almost gave him everything. Pero kahit ano palang gawin ko, if ayaw n’ya sa’kin, he won’t stay.
I asked him to stay. I needed him. Yes, I’m selfish. It broke my heart.
Tear drops started falling. 2 years have passed. He is already happy with my sister. I tried my best to be happy for them. I know I tried.
It’s already 10 o’clock in the evening. I opened my phone. Pumasok ang mga messages.
Clark sent a photo to GROUP FRIENDS:
“What is your TOTGA experience? Is it worth fighting for?”
Syndy: My The One That Got Away experience was not worth it. It is not worth fighting for. Maybe because it does not mean that you love that person, he is meant for you. I just knew I just invested such feelings na dapat hindi. He is my TOTGA but not my Destiny.
