Save me from myself - Lashton/5SOS

Chapter 2

Meh. This chapter is so Meh. Is that a describing word? Well it is now! haha. Sorry I know it sucks but i've just started a tonne of coursework and i've had literally no time to write a new chapter - but I really wanted to post something because I got a couple of comments asking me to update:)

-~Warning that there's a lot of swearing in this chapter~

I hope y'all like it anyways! I'm going to start putting a song at the start of each chapter that i've been listening to a lot recently.

So i've had the don't stop EP on all day since it came out today - so this chapter's song is Rejects by 5sos <3

Ashton’s P.O.V:

Crap.

Shit.

Fuck.

Please don’t say what I think you’re going to say.

Please.

‘Ashton w-w-why d-does that j-jumper have b-b-blood on the s-sleeve?’

Fuck.

‘Ohh, um, no reason, I just um, think when Michael landed on me, his um jeans cut my arm a bit, but it’s fine now don’t worry’

Really Ashton? That’s the best excuse you could come up with?

‘Oh, Okay then,’ he replies looking a bit unsure ‘well pull up your sleeve and I’ll clean it up for you’

Fuck.

‘Oh no that’s alright, its fine now, we better um get going - don’t want to keep hungry Cal and Mikey waiting, that is not a pretty sight!’

He smiles at me as I head to the door.

‘Wait Ash!’ he calls after me.

‘Yeah?’

‘You’d tell me if there was anything wrong, right?’

‘Course Lukey’

Lies.

‘Okay, good, I love you Ash! Don’t know what I’d do without my best friend!’

Best friend…

‘Yeah love you too Luke’

Don’t know what I’d do without the person that gives me a reason to wake up every morning.

Just as I’m about to leave, he grabs my wrist, spins me round, and engulfs me into a huge hug, a hug that lasts slightly longer than a ‘best friends’ hug should. At first it hurts a bit as he slightly scrapes against my cuts, but then I breathe in his stunning scent; Vanilla, and melt into his warm, strong arms. And I know now that this is it, this is where I belong. I know now that I’m in love with the one and only Luke Robert Hemmings, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. I’ve fallen in too deep to get out now. When I’m in his arms I forget about all the shit in my life, all the pain and the truth, all I can do is smile and think about how lucky I am to have Luke in my life.

*Michael coughs*

Luke and I quickly pull away, awkwardly avoiding eye contact.

‘Well now you two love birds are done with your cuddle session, can we pleeeeeeeaaaaseee go! Ice-cream isn’t something that you can just put on hold – I Demand ice-cream!!’

Nodding slightly, I notice Luke blush and look down as we head to the car. Why is he so damn cute!?

As I open the car Calum and Mike go in the back and Luke joins me in the front, sitting in the passenger seat next to me.

Luke’s P.O.V:

I hope Ashton’s okay.

Who am I kidding? I know he’s not okay.

I know he was lying.

All that nonsense about Michael’s jeans scraping against his arm is complete bullshit and I know it. I can tell some things up – it has been for months. He just doesn’t seem like the happy bubbly Ash I used to know – he seems so down all the time. I know he fake smiles, I know he hates eating because he thinks he’s fat – I can tell because he pulls this disgusted face every time he takes a bite, and then he pinches his stomach under the table. I don’t understand how someone so beautiful and perfect can hate themselves so much. It makes me so sad to know that my Ashy is hurting.

I can hear him singing along to Therapy by All Time Low, I love how his eyes light up every time a new line starts, this is one of his favourite songs, I remember he always used to go on about it and how perfect it is, just like him. His voice is so beautiful, I could just listen to it all day every day, it makes me feel so happy and warm when I hear it. I wish he was more confident about singing, he’s so talented and all the 5sos fam loves him and his voice, he just doesn’t see that.

I want my happy, bubbly Ashton back.

And I know there’s only one way to do that.

I need to fix him.

I need to save him.

And I’m going to stop at nothing to do so.