The Way You Scream My Name - Ziam (Kind of AU)-Warning Smut

Chapter 9 - Caught like a Deer in Headlights

Dedication: MZ1KAYLA, thank you for voting for this story. Thank you. A neverending thank you.

Chapter 9 - Caught like a Deer in Headlights

-Zayn-

I looked up. Harry stood in the middle of the door.

He looked at us with a shocked expression. Neither of said anything. A couple seconds passed and Harry just mumbled: “Liam, we’re on.”

He turned on his heels, storming out the door. Liam looked at me, wincing and with an unreadable expression on his face.

He stormed after him. I don’t know if he caught him. I don’t know if he talked to him. I just know that right now I feel incredible empty and like the walls are crashing down on me.

I imagined coming out differently, I imagined Liam and I coming into the Lounge together, holding hands, smiling wildly and telling the others “We got something to tell you”, while Liam pulls me closer, puts his arm around me and kisses me lightly on the head. “We’re in love.”

That’s what I thought it would be like. That’s what I wanted it to be like.

I sat on the couch, my head in my hands and I started to cry. I don’t know why excactly. It wasn’t that bad. Harry is a thoughtful guy. He wouldn’t run around shouting it out. But somehow I suddenly felt afraid.

I started discussing with myself.

What was I in for? My family. They propably won’t hate me. They are pretty open minded. Friends from school. I got a few close ones, even if the contact is a little limited due to everyone moving on and away from school. Still they’ll get over it.

I had nothing to loose. All I wanted was a chance. A chance on a Life with Liam. But what was he in for? What is he going to loose?

His family. I don’t know them. Yet. I don’t know. His Friends. Well the only friends I know of his, are the Boys.

Harry. He doesn’t seem like he would mind. Well he had a pretty shocked expression on his face. But really who could blame him. But I have the feeling, all in all. He wouldn’t mind.

Louis. He’s a Joker. But he has his serious side as well. He seems to me like the person who fights for to the death to protect their friends. He won’t mind either. And I think he was suspecting something anyway.

Niall. Well Niall was a Little Sunshine. He’s always smiling and I’m pretty sure he would want Liam to be happy no matter what.

Now to the problem. The Fans. Well as far as I know, they love the boys. Sure there will be hate. But the true fans. They will love the boys no matter which sexual orientation they have.

The management. That’s what I’m afraid of.

All this drama. Was he worth it. Only one answer came in mind.

Yes. A 100% yes.

But does he think the same? He’s risking way more.

Was I worth it?

-Liam-

I was rushing through the corridors. Thank God Harry was such a clumsy little kid, when it comes to running.

I grabbed his arm. “Harry, wait. It’s not what you think it is. Well it is. But I can explain.”

“Well, explain then. Explain how you could fall in love and not tell me. Man, I thought we are best friends.”

I was stunned. “Wait you’re not angry, because I’m ahm. Well I’m with a boy?”

“What. Liam. You know me better than that. I couldn’t care less who you’re in love with. I’m just disappointed you didn’t tell me. Well, I come to you with every little crush I have.”

It’s true. He does. I blushed.

“Well, I just figured it out last night actually.”

Harry’s eyes went wide. “LIAM. That’s why you’re limping? You already slept with him. You little slut. I can’t believe you.”

We started laughing and he hugged me. “Liam, I love you no matter what, okay? And I’m happy for you. He seems like a nice dude. If he hurts you tho’. Tell me.”

I hugged him back tightly. “Thank You. I am afraid you know. Scared to the bones. What about my family. What about management?”

“Liam. Your Family loves you. They won’t care. About the management tho’. Let’s try to keep it under covers for now. We’ll figure something out okay. Just keep the limping to a minimum and promise me we’ll talk to the boys tonight. You know I can’t lie for shit. And if Louis asks me, you know I can’t keep anything from him.”

I laughed and ruffled his hair. Such a lovely boy he was.

“Sure let’s do that. I have to talk to Zayn first tho’. But I promise. We’ll tell the boys after the concert. Thank You Harry. You have no idea how confused I feel inside at the moment.”

“I think I know your problem better than you think I do.”

“Harry. What do you mean?”

“Boys. We’re on in five. Shuffle people.”

Damn it Paul. I really wanted to know, what Harry meant by that.

When I walked to the stage I felt as light as on feathers. Maybe this all won’t be to bad. Maybe It’ll all be fine. Maybe.

Our 4 podiums rose through the stage and we greeted the crowd. Right in front I saw a beautiful boy, with raven colored hair and a camera in his hands. Zayn. My Zayn. I made sure to give him a secret thumbs up, so he’ll know. He’ll know that we’ll be fine.

He smiled and I made sure to keep my concentration on the crowd this time, I didn’t want to get to excited again, so the management would suspect something.

It was harder to hide my limping tho’. I wasen’t running around and jumping around as much as I used to. But to be honest. I was getting better.

It was hard tho’. I caught myself blowing him kisses a couple of times, making him blush. Until Harry ellbowed me in the side and shot me a warning look. I understood, I let my gaze wander to Zayn one last time and I saw in his eyes he understood as well. I nodded in his direction and my eyes left him completely for the rest of the night.

I can’t describe to you how hard that was.

Did you ever feel like gravity was pulling you into the direction of that person. He was my planet I was his moon. I circeled him. I couldn’t go too far away. My whole body was aching for his touch. My lips missed his gentle touch. I wanted to feel him again. Taste him again. Make him never leave my side.

This was by far the longest concert we ever played.

Or so I thought.