The Proposal

Chapter 19

Once they returned to her parents' house, Killian grabbed the two small boxes from his backpack and went with her outside. They sat on the porch swing, as Emma draped a blanket over them and Killian took a breath.

"Love, I wanted to talk about us wearing wedding rings." Killian said softly.

Emma couldn't help but smile at his words. "I'd love that, Killian.. I really would. We can get rings when we get back home.." She played with his shirt sleeve.

"Actually, Love.. I have rings, and I know I probably should have talked to you about this, and let you pick them out yourself or something, but.." He offered her the ring boxes he had.

She opened them and smiled a little. "No, no.. I love these, Killian. I like that they match my engagement ring.. They're gorgeous."

He kissed her head. "I had them made to match.. I wanted them to be special, but still ours.. Since your engagement ring is my mom's.. And I had yours engraved with my initials and the date we got married. If you.. If you wanted mine engraved or something, we could do that too."

She kissed him softly. "I love it, and I might want to get yours engraved.. I don't want um.. I want.." She sighed. "I don't want you to feel like you have to wear one, I know you were worried about it since you can't wear it on your left hand.. So um.. Which finger are you going to wear yours on?" She asked softly.

He kissed her back. "I was just going to wear it on my right ring finger.. I know it's not the typical place, but.. It's the best I can do for you. And it's something I want to do for you." He sighed.

"Hey, look at me.." She said gently as he lifted his eyes to meet hers. "I don't give a damn what finger you wear it on. I know you're mine, and that's all I care about. I know we decided we didn't want wedding rings when we got married, but.. I like the idea that you have proof that.. That you've got someone who is yours.. And, as a promise you're not going to be alone."

He nodded and kissed her cheek. "I love you so much.. I just wanted you to have the ring, and know that I'm in this for the long haul no matter what we decide to do regarding this pregnancy.. You are never going to be alone. Unless you decide you don't want me anymore."

She hugged him tightly. "Thank you, Killian. I love you too, truly. I don't plan on ever letting you go.." She kissed his cheek. "Look.. I know what Henry said.. And I know it makes me hypocritical to want a baby with you.. But.. I don't know what to do."

Killian nodded a little. "I don't believe it is hypocritical of you to want another chance, Emma.."

"But I didn't raise Henry, I gave him up.." She sighed.

"Did you not want him at all? I refuse to believe that you didn't want him at all. I see it sometimes.. You look at him, a sad look in your eyes because you wish you had raised him.. But then I see you smile because you are so happy with the way he turned out.." Killian said softly. "It's okay to want a chance to be a mom, to raise a child that is yours." He kissed her forehead.

She looked up at him nervously. "I.. I'm thinking about us keeping the baby." She blurted out suddenly.

"You are? You don't have to if it's just for me.. I told you I would be okay if you didn't want to keep it." He ran his fingers through her hair.

"It's not just for you.. It's.. It's for me too.." She admitted. "You know that my biggest fear was guilt, and Henry being upset.. But you saw how excited he was, how happy he was for us.." She looked up at him, her fear still evident in her green eyes.

Killian nodded. "Aye, the lad was very happy at the thought of you having another baby.. And I know that this is still a scary situation, but I.. I know you, and I know you're only so nervous because you're scared that this is something you might want.."