Tired // s.w.

23

-2 days later-
-Monique's Pov-

I knocked on Sammy's door as I stood there waiting for a response.

Jessie went out to take care of something and I thought it was a perfect time to talk about what happened the other night.

"Yeah?" I heard on the other side.

"Sammy, can I come in?"

I heard shuffling as the door knob opened.

"What?" He asked as I walked in.

"Can we talk about the other day?"

"No, no Mon"

"Sammy please, there was a mistake and I want to address it"

"I'm leaving" Sammy stood there as I looked at him confused.

"Home?"

"No, I'm going to stay with a friend"

"Sammy-"

"Mon, you and your fiancé need to talk and work things out because right now he's furious about you drinking when there's nothing wrong with it. Monique you're 23 for goodness sake!- but that's the life you chose. Do you really want someone to control you?!"

"Sammy, it was just one altercation. Really soon me and Jessie will talk it out and we'll be okay but you don't have to leave because we had one argument"

"No Mon, it's not just that!" He sat down on the bed as I sat down next to him.

"Then what?"

"Mon...I'm in love with you! Clearly you know that but-fuck Mon! I don't know how to let my feelings out!"

"Sam" I touched his shoulder as he quickly moved my hand from his shoulder. "Why did you come in the first place?"

He got up from the bed.

"Like you don't know. I came to know you a little bit more. To wake up everyday knowing that I'll get to see you. To get to go to sleep at night thinking to myself 'how come I don't have you right here next to me?'" He pointed at the bed. "To notice all the shit Jessie has done to you. Every little thing- especially when he has never said 'I love you Mon'. Fuck Mon when are you going to start realizing that you're not with the right man. There's a reason for you being in my life again. And now that I have you by my side... I'm not losing you again"

"Then don't leave" I got forgetting everything I said earlier about forgetting what had happened almost three days ago.

Every single word that came out of his mouth was so meaningful.

My conscience had completely shit down as I listened to my heart. And my heart was telling me to forget about the world for a second and focus on what's right in front of me.

"Please don't leave" I begged as I caressed his cheek.

Soon I felt my feet leave the ground and felt them around his waist. I felt his hands on my thighs. Sammy lifted me off the ground making me feel my back against the wall.

"Please don't beg like that" he said under his breath as his mouth moved all over my neck.

I bit my bottom lip as I felt his tongue move across my sweet spot.

"Mon, please push me away before I lay you down on that bed and do dirty things to you"

Please do. I told myself but reality came over me remembering Jessie could come in any minute.

"Yeah" I brought my feet to the ground as I lightly pushed him away.

I put my hand over my for head breathing in and out.

"Um...I'm going to check up on Pebbles" I said as I walked out the door closing it.

Oh...my...fuck.

I have to control myself.

I really do.

Monique you're getting married. You can't be unfaithful.

Even though you already are.

No matter how many times I would tell myself fuck it...you were already unfaithful might as well continue to do what you're doing.

It took a lot for me not to run back in the room and go back to the position we were previously but I kept telling myself No!

But is it fucked up that I don't regret nor feel bad for what just happened?

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