Dont be afraid (harry styles.)

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A/n -have you guys been to KI ..... I HATE CLOWNS!!!!!

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Sky's p.o.v

You know that feeling you get. Like in the pit of your stomach. You don't know what it is or why it's there but it is, it makes you feel like your going to vomit. I was feeling that.

I sit here,on the cold concrete of my patio. My entire body is freezing but I can't seem to grasp the fact that niall and I kissed, and then he just left.Was the kiss that bad? I didn't even expect that from myself but when I did it, it just felt right. Then he just gets up and leaves. He leaves like everyone else does, alone, shattered, confused.

"Why are you on the ground?"

I turn to see harry leaning against the patio door, hands in his pocket and a cigarette in his mouth. "Why are you here?" I ask looking up at him.

He takes his hand out of his pocket and crouches down next to me. "I came to apologize,for hitting you"

I laughed "you of all people should know 'sorry's' don't mean anything to me" I put my hands in my hand

"Yes, I know that but I'm trying to be nice here" he gave a smile.

Anger growing inside of me I stood up. "Nice? You trying to be nice? Okay harry, easing where was your sorry when you yelled at me in the car yesterday. Where was your sorry when that restaurant burned down!" I yelled looking him dead in the eyes "where was your sorry when you raped me, where the fuck was your sorry when I watched my brother and my mother get beaten and then murdered" I lowers my cracking voice "where is your sorry for the nightmares I have at night. Where is your sorry for the pain you've caused me. It hurts!" I yelled clutching my chest. "It hurts so much and I want it to be over, I no go to sleep hoping my pain will end but I wake up the next morning only to be disappointed!" I dropped to my Knees and whispered "It hurts Harry."

He just stared at me. Not being able to respond to what I had just said .

Moments of silence later he spoke up "Pain is meant to be felt" His voice sounded sincere.

I slid back down beside him, but my gaze focused on the dark sky above us. "More than you know."

"Do you remember what you said. You know down stairs before you-"

He closed his eyes "Yeah, what about it?"

I turned towards him "you said 'You can leave me' harry you said 'me' not 'us '."

He shrugged his eyes still closed "Um yeah, we'll you would be leaving me too. And the boys. I guess I just left them out."

"Do you care about me?" I questioned.

He opened his eyes, green staring deeply into my brown. He smiled dimple showing "More than you know"

I smiled. "You should smile more, it looks good on you." I complimented.

He rolled his head back in laughter "We'll if people didn't make me pissed off all the time, you would see it a lot more. I laughed with him.

"Do you ever wonder?" I started

"Nope I sit here and just breath." He teased.

I hit I'm playfully on the shoulder. "I'm being serious, do you ever just think. Like you can't help but think you can't control what your thinking about your mind just takes our there."

"I think I like you" he said his eyes not looking at mine as he continued "and I don't mean like that middle school type of shi- crap. It's strange, whenever you say my name it makes my stomach do flips and I feel strange as hell around you. Like I don't know how yo form a coherent sentence. I remember when I first saw you. You looked absolutely ravishing, then you saw us coming towards you and you ran into a wall." He chuckled shaking his head slightly."I knew I liked you from that moment and I wanted you to be mine" he turned to look me deeply in the eyes."would you be mine?"

He wanted me to be his? I wanted to be his, but at the same time I wanted nothing to do with him. I think I like him too. I have no one, no one to tell me it's going to be okay. And I need him, almost as much as I know he needs me right now.

"Yes"

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A/N just saw TFIOS ..... I'm not emotionally stable right now so excuse me if this chpt is a bit sad. But heyyyyy I threw in a TFIOS quote.