Yeh Dil ❤️

Part 14

Gauri's Pov

Omkaraji !! hum jaante hain ki aap humse pyaar karte hain; aur hum yeh bhi jaante hain ki hum apne raviye se sabko chot pahuncha rahe hain khaas karke jhanvi maa ko. Par omkaraji itne gehri choton se ubharna aasan nhn hai aur khaas kar tab jab girne ki wajah aapka pyaar ho; sab kuch bhula dena aasaan nhn hai. Humne bahut koshish ki par hain toh hum bhi insaan he na; humare andar bhi jasbaat hain toh kaise sab humse umeed laga kar bethe hain ki hum jhath se sabkuch bhool ke sabko maaf karden aur apna lein. Aaj aapke kamre main apni tasveerein dekh ke hum sab kuch bhool ke aapki bhaahon main pighalna chahte the omkaraji; ek baar fer aapko mauka dena chahte the...Magar jaise he wo kadwe 5 saal yaad aaye; hum nhn kar paaye...Hume pta hai ki aapko bahut takleef hui hogi..par yakeen maaniye aapko dukh dene se jo takleef hume hoti hai wo aap kabhi soch bhi nhn sakte.....Hum aaj bhi aapse bepannah mohabbat karte hain ; iss budhu dil main aaj bhi sirf aap he hain aur aap he rahenge...Hum nhn nikaal paaye aapko apne iss dil se....

( Omkaraji! I know that you are hopelessly in love with me and I am aware that I am hurting everyone especially jhanvi maa with my indifference. But omkaraji it's not easy to rise after falling so hard; especially when you fall because of your loved ones; It's not easy to letgo. I struggled hard; I tried a lot but even I am a human being and I have feelings too then how?? How is everyone expecting me to forget everything as if it never happened. How can you all forsee me forgiving like a saint? Today, after seeing your room adorned with my paintings; I wanted to melt in your arms; I wanted to give you a chance but I couldn't thinking about those vicious 5 years of our lives. I know you are hurt; you get hurt with each of my rejection but can never contemplate my feeling after seeing you so fragile.. I still am aimlessly in love you; This tomfool heart of mine ain't in my control.. It still envisions you; still beats for you and will forever love you. I could never get to hate you)

She goes to sleep thinking all this...

2 months have passed since... Omkara comes to gauri's house everyday to spend some time with his family...Jhanvi accompanies him on some occasions while tej is mostly there to keep a check on everything...

Gauri has started talking to jhanvi...But still doesn't address her as maa...Misunderstandings between gauri and omkara have been decreasing but this isn't sitting well with SID who is constantly trying to keep gauri away from Omkara.....

Omkara omkara! Omkara...jab dekho ri aur apne beech ki baatein suljhaane ki koshish karta rehta hai yeh omkara! Pta nhn kyun nhn samjhta hai ki ri use apni zindagi main waapis nhn chahti.... Sid says angrily and bangs the table with his fist.... ( Omkara omkara! Omkara....That man is always trying to sort out the misunderstandings between ri and him. Can't he see and accept that ri doesn't want him back in her life)

Par ab toh ri ka raviya thoda naram hai uss omkara ki taraf sid's heart replies to him.... ( But ri is no longer distant as she was in the beginning)

Haan par ab bhi wo usse seedhe moo baat nhn karti hai....Sid's brain tells him ( yes! But she still doesn't see to him in the eye)

Chinta mat karo sid; ri tumhari hi hai. Nhn jayegi wo uss omkara ke pass sid's heart tells him ( Don't worry sid! Ri is yours. She will never go back to omkara)

Par kyun nhn jayegi uske bachon ka pita hai wo; uska pati hai wo; Aur pyaar bhi karta hai wo omkara ri se...sid's brains counter replies.... ( but why will she not go? Om is the father of her children; om is her husband; om is the love of her life)

There is a war between sid's heart and brain and he brekas the mirror with a nearby vase in frustration while shutting his ears and shouting NHN!!!!!!

Running his blood soaked hands through his mane angrily; he says: mujhe kuch toh aisa karna hoga jisse ri humesha humesha ke liye sirf sur sirf meri ho jaaye... Main nhn reh sakta ri ke bina.. Ek baar ri meri hojaaye fer uss omkara ko kabhi nhn milne doonga main apni ri. Waise bhi uss omkara ne meri ri ko kabhi dukh ke ilaaawa kuch nhn diya hai aur ab main uski zindagi khushiyon se bhar doonga... ( I have to think of something soon. I have to do something to keep her with me till eternity... I can't live without ri. I won't ever let om near my ri once she is with me. All she has ever got from that man is hurt but I will fill her live with all the happiness)