Yeh Dil ❤️

Part 17

The morning seeps in; the sun rays directly fall on gauri's face disturbing her sleep.. after being disturbed she stirs around in her semi asleep state! Not being able to change her side she opens her eyes rubbing them to make the vision clear....A hand on her waist holding her protectively...a face buried in her chest and hair scattered is what she sees---- A vision worth remembering; a vision of her omkaraji...

Caressing his face; a small smile appears on his face as if feeling her love him with her tiny hands......she thinks

Kal raat ki neend humari inn 5 saalon ki sabse zaada geheri neend thi...aur aaj ki subeh humari sabse khaas subeh; shayad yeh sirf aapki wajah se hai omkaraji...par hum yeh baat aapko pta nhn chalne denge ki aap hume fer se pighal rahe hain; ki aap humare dil apni jagah dobaara bnaane lage hain.! Par hum iss baat ko nazarandaaz bhi nhn kar sakte ki hum aapse pyaar karne lage hain; aapse umeed karne lage hain...aap par bharosa karne lage hain; hume acha lagta hai jab aap humare liye khade hote hain; hume haq se apni patni bulaate hain..humme bahut pyaar aata hai aap par jab aap humare bachon ke saath khelte sab kuch bhula kar....Hum yeh bhi jaante hain ki aapko humare raviye se takleef hoti hai par kya Karen hum...nhn bhool paa rahe hain; I am sorry omkaraji! Hum maaji se bhi maafi maang lenge apne bartaav ke liye...aura apse bhi!

Par abhi hum sirf wo sab mehsoos karna chahte hain jo hume tab nhn mila jab aapki patni ban ke rehte the aapke ghar main..

( This was the most peaceful slumber I have had in the past 5 years; and this morning is the most precious morning; may be this is all because of you omkaraji..! But I don't want you to ever know this; I will not let you know that I am becoming assuasive towards you; I won't let you know that you are making a place for yourself in my heart.. But I can't even shut my eyes to the fact that I am falling in love with you again; I have started to expect from you; I have strated to trust you again. I feel proud to see you stand up for me; I feel happy when you claim your rights on me as your wife...I just love you beyond words when I see you forget everything and play with our children.  I know that you are hurt; hurt with the way I have been behaving with uou but what should I do? I am not able to forgo everything that happened with me; I am sorry omkaraji! I will even ask forgiveness from maaji but for now I just want to live the moments that I have always craved for during the time I was with you in your home as your wife)

Om is admiring a gauri who is laying comfortably in his arms but is lost in thinking something...He doesn't disturb rather just withholds the sight that he has woken up to!

Om' POV

Bahut tarsa hoon; bahut tadpa hoon tumahri baahoon main yun sone ke liye; tumahri baahon main yun uthne ke liye! Kal muqadaron baad ek aise raat aayi thi; aaj ek aise haseen subeh aayi hai jisse mera bass chale toh guzarne na doon. Main hamesha iss tasweer ko thaamna chahta hoon apni aankhon main; apne dil main aur apne canvas par bhi. Gauri! kaise main tumhe yakeen dilaayun ki main badal gya hoon. Tumahre mujhe chod ke jaane ke baad he maine khudko aur tumhe samjha hai; rishton ki samjha hai; yeh samjha hai ki shaadi ka bandhan sirf aur sirf pyaar par nhn chalta balki vishwaas uska ek aisa pahiya hai jo agar toot jaaye toh shaadi naam ki gaadi aage nhn badhti. Gauri please mujhe samjho; mujpe fer se ek baar bharosa karo. Mujhe zaroorat hai tumhari; tumhare bharose ki; tumhare pyaar ki. Main chahta hoon ki mera har din sirf tumse shuru aur sirf aur sirf tumpar khatam ho...sone se pehle roz tumhara chehra dekhna chahta hoon; uthne ke baad tumhare chehre se apne din ki shurwaat karna chahta hoon main gauri.

( I have yearned for; I have ached for sleeping in your ams; cuddling to you; to wake up wrapped in the blanket of your arms. Yesterday was that night and today is that morning that has come after decades of my penance; I wish I could hold it forever. I want to capture this serne picture in my eyes and in my canvas.. Gauri! how do I make you believe that I have changed; changed for the better? I have understood myself after you left; I have understood that marriage can not last solely on love; Trust is the front wheel of the car of marriage without which it stumbles. Gauri please understand me; please trust me once more! I need you gauri; I need you to trust me; I need you to love me. I want my day to start and end with you; seeing your face I want to start my day and end my nights)