"Hello, is anyone there"?
Please tell me you didn't disappear
Can't you hear the pain
The scares that goes across my veins
It's delightful,isn't it?
How couldn't you hear?
(Me screaming till my lungs gave out)
Why didn't you help me?
(Help me to put down the blade to make me feel safe)
Why weren't you here to help?
(Where did you go?,when I needed you the
most, when I was locked in my room wishing that I would bloom,wishing that I didn't have that blade in my hand while my mom was banging on the door screaming for me not to hurt myself no more)
I needed you but you let me go
You told me you loved me and that you'll never go with the negative flow
But I see you floating..I see you floating down to the devils boat
Just let me fucking slit my throat
I guess it's hard for you to understand
How bad it is to hear your mom cry her self to sleep wondering where she went wrong
Wondering if she had anything to prevent this
Mom please just go to sleep
I'll be here tomorrow morning
As I laid in bed with her
Just one touch on her arm she shivers
Mom are you scared of me
........
Damn😔 she should just have stuck with the dog
