Enduring (EXO)

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Jinri closed her eyes for a while to calm herself down. Sehun stared at her as she shook her head a few times.

" It is.. This is.. impossible..", she murmured but enough for Sehun to catch.

" What is impossible, Jinri? I like you and what needs more?", he asked and sighed the pains.

" I don't like you like that.", she should have known that her words hurt like cuts.

Sehun got silent and Jinri followed that silence. Sehun avoided to look at Jinri while she was gazing up to him.

" I'm--".

" Why don't you listen to my words? Didn't I ask you to lie to me? If I asked you to lie, you can just say a lie that you liked me too.", he interrupted and Jinri heard the pains in his voice.

" I don't lie about love, Sehun.", she said and it made him to look at her. " I can't do that to a friend like you..".

" Isn't it ok if I don't care about it?", he asked, his heart felt like being pierced by broken glasses.

Jinri felt so suffocating at that moment. His eyes, his eyes made her lost tonight.

" I am fine with the fact that you don't like me back. I am also fine with the fact that you aren't expert with relationships. I am even fine with the fact that you like..", his heart throbbed as his words stopped.

Jinri was a bit shocked at his sudden outburst, it seemed like he knows her secret feelings that she doesn't want anyone to find out.

" .. him.. Even if so, it is still impossible?", he said, as if he was almost begging at Jinri.

Her heart hurts physically and she couldn't breathe properly. When he said, him. It means he knows her feelings well. But what is the point of confessing a girl like her?

" No.", still her answer was confirmed.

His heart bled as she averted her eyes to somewhere else. Why she is so sharp about refusal while she is so soft in other times? Why she can hurt a person like this so easily? Sehun thought about Minhyuk who got refused by Jinri. And he thinks he understands the feelings of getting refused, now.

" You're..", Jinri looked up to him as his lips uttered, " a real heartbreaker, Choi Jinri, just in case you don't know yourself..".

Jinri searched for the anger in his eyes but she couldn't find any aggressive feelings in his brown orbs. When he said those words, his eyes were crestfallen.

•••••

The night isn't comfortable for Jinri anymore. Walking next to Sehun isn't pleasing for Jinri anymore. Hanging her head down, seeing his shoes isn't ecstatic anymore.

Jinri only wished to arrive her house as soon as possible. Her heart was throbbing and she needed a good breath for herself alone.

Meanwhile, Sehun also hoped they could reach their destination faster. But the fate is also cruel to him tonight. He felt the times getting slower.

If it is with his habit, he would immediately leave Jinri at the tteokbokki truck and go home. It is the usual him and what he does every time he feels fucking up. But it is Jinri. He couldn't go home straight until he sent Jinri home safely.

" .. Are you coming in?", Jinri asked and Sehun was taken back to reality at her voice. They are finally in front of her house.

" No.", he shook his head. Jinri just nodded and turned around to open the gate door.

" Wait, Jinri.", she stopped her movements and turned back to look at Sehun.

She stared at Sehun but Sehun wasn't speaking. He wasn't looking at her either while she was waiting for him to continue.