Army (What Breaks My Heart 2)

Special Chapter 1: The Problem.

Zeanna.

"Bakit Kurt? Galit sya? So he got the right to be angry at me now?! At this moment?" I rolled my eyes and tightened the phone in my hand. "You won't understand, believe me." I look at my right side, glancing as my eyes caught him standing near me. "He's...here."

My Husband. Thinking I couldn't blame him either.

There's so much in life I would forever thanked for. Him, my family, my career, and my friends. After Marion and I got into a separate workplace, we decided to arrange a wedding 2 years later. So here we are, standing where we stood, married as we should, but not as strong as we could.

Nice rhyming, huh?

I blink twice and let both our eyes battle in the air as I ended the call with Kurt(Chelsea's son).

And just like that, my body tensed as I found his dark eyes raging on fire. His face looked fiercer in his grey shirt leaving his jacket hanging in his arm matching it with blue navy jeans and Nike.

What is he doing here?

Any second, my PA approached me carrying tons of dresses for me to decide for my models.

"Miss Z..." she stopped midway after seeing Marion glared at her coming in my way. "E-excuse me." I just gave a tight smile for apology.

I gazed at my surrounding for the scene he was making. Confidently, I turned my back to walk out when he caught my arm and stopped me.

"Let's talk." His cold voice sent shivers from my ears down to my spine. "Now. Please." His voice was a bit pleading but I know he's angry.

And I think I know why now.

I faced him before I took his hands off mine as he walked first and set the place in his car.

"Why are you like this? Won't you tell me what's wrong?" He faced me but I faced the building. He parked his car in front of it. "What do you want?" His voice turned colder than it was earlier. "Divorce? What's happening to us? Fuck Zeanna, it's been a year we're like this!" He left an exasperated sigh and to my surprise he hit the wheel in rage. He's breathing deep, heat coming from his mouth and nose passed through my face.

I fell silent. Like I'm immune to this. Numb, I look passed through the window, outside where the people are passing by. The people who have their happy life. Happy family.

Tears started forming my eyes and my heart just tightened as the couple passed by the car carrying their baby. A dad holding his son on his shoulders, his mom supporting his balance. Memories that are kept locked are knocking to get out from the box.

I faced him as a tear escaped from my eye. "We've lost one Marion." My voice cracked and tears from both eyes shed at the same time as I closed my eyes. I sighed and opened my eyes once again.

He was confused. I know he'll be reacting what's happening to me but what I've expected didn't happen. He looked at my direction then looked at the couple I was insecure of. And a pang of guilt hit me back when he made me face him and hugged me.

For all I thought, he wouldn't understand as he won't forgive me. That he won't find out what I'm acting all these months to a year.

I circled my arms in his neck and let the tears flow on his shoulders. His arms are on my back, rubbing. "Marion..." I pleaded, "I'm sorry... I lied to you..." I was hardly breathing but instead of asking me so many things, he let me calmed down before everything.

"Shhh... We'll talk about it later." He kept on caressing my arm and brushing my tears away. It took me a lot of courage to face him. I don't even have a face to show him. I was so embarrass of myself. I lied to him, my husband. Not for a single word, but for a whole year of avoiding the truth.

I lied to the only man I've known who wouldn't dared leaving me. To the man who thought he was problem. To the man who had known nothing at all.

One year after our wedding, Marion was assigned to work with his father in Europe. When he left, I was pregnant for two months already and he didn't know. He's been away for months and I wanted to surprise him when he gets back.

Hansel, Mom, Gretel and I agreed to surprise him by not telling him I was pregnant. Of course, it's a surprise. It was the 4th month of my pregnancy when the doctor declared my baby's weak. It has to be labored in no time. And I don't want it to happen.

The thing is, when the baby would be out, it won't last in my arms. And if not, my stomach will be damaged. I choose to die with my baby but I have to live with Marion. For Marion.

Mom said she'll tell the truth to Marion but I refused. It happened my stomach's torturing me, enough to kill me. And that time, my baby was born in fifth month and died after a week. Marion arrived a month later and I pretended nothing happened. Secretly killing myself for shutting the fact up til' I got my treatment bad towards Marion for months without him knowing what a single thing had happened.

"Marion... I'm sorry..." I cried desperately after I told him everything. It's been minutes after he released me and fell silent. I hurt him a lot. "I was scared..." I whimpered as I brush both of my cheeks from the tears that keep on flowing.

He kept on hitting the wheel and pulling his hair with his hands. He was sad, frustrated. I deserve everything he wants me to do. If that includes getting a divorce paper to end our marriage, I will do it. I don't want to hurt him so much but lying this thing matters a lot in our lives.

And everyday of my life, I just wished I'm strong enough to speak the truth. I was a coward. I deserve to be forsaken.

"I am your husband Zeanna." Coldness and rage was seen in his eyes. "You should at least told me what's on your fucking mind..." I'm so sorry. "I should have done something. I should have never left you before. God." He pulled his hair over and over again. "I should have get what's the problem every time you kissed me. I should have..." His voice cracked and looked at me as a tear fell from his eyes.

And I cried for him. "Marion, no." I shook my head, "It's all my fault. Please don't blame yourself. Please..." I cupped his face and leaned on my chest as he closed his eyes. "You don't deserve this." My voice cracking as I caressed his hair. "I am the one who was to be blamed for. I am the one who lied to you. I am the one who made this problem so don't cover up for me. I deserve everything. I'm sorry." Tears fell in hair.

He looked up to me and brushed my tears away. "You should have been hurt more than I do... I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me." He kissed my forehead. "We'll get over with this together, okay?" His voice turned sweet and determined. And just like that, my heavy heart just lifted off by him.

"Marion..." I was overwhelmed in what he was showing me. I never thought he'll take me this way after. And I was so glad I've had a husband like him. It was the last thing I could have wished. For us to be back again. And just like that, God brought back him to me and me in myself.

I looked at his dark eyes which was filled with love again before he placed me in his lap, cupped his face and kissed him passionately.

He was my everything.
And forever he'll be.

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Now playing : I'll be.

I'll Be

Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains and thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be....